The Final Countdown

Time flies....Another year goes by...
2010 is just in 8hours time.
Another new chapter of life....

"Dream Lofty Dreams, and as you dream, so shall you become.
Your vision is the promise of you shall at last unveil "
- John Ruskin "

I know sometimes in the near future
My dreams may come true

"When a life trouble hit us like a tidal wave,
we can remember that God's compassion never fail. "
Lamentations 3:22

I'll become a better person
I believe it
I shall never ever let my past to ruin my present and future happiness

Live Ardently
Live Faithfully
Live Optimistically

Let us run and catch our vision in the coming NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR
everyone !!!!!
Toast !!!!!!!!!

Merry X'mas 感觉温馨亦脆弱的季节

Firstly, Wishing all of You
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009 !!!!!

Here some photos which i would like to share with u all...

X'mas On Year 2004
The year which i love it alot... My parents fulfill my dream bringing me to Genting Highlands and celebrate X'mas...
Look, my hair still very short and my face was a lil bit of "gong bin"
and my little brother ( Ting Han ) still far shorter den me...haha...but years go by... Now his height is 175cm dee...
My lovely family....really miss you all alots in x'mas...


Today, while i was having my lunch alone in room and watching tv.. The ringtone of "Canon B" rang up...
"We wish you a merry x'mas , We wish u a merry x'mas, We wish u a merry x'mas and a Happy New Year !!!! " My family was singing the song to me on another side of phone.
U know wat, I was like.... erghrrrr..... I felt a thrust of Warm, Touch and Love amidst the loneliness in Bali .... The end, My tears couldn't help but lingering in my eyes...
I tried very hard to resist myself from tearing because i don't want my parents worrying me..

X'mas On Year 2005
My beloved LYK .... u know LYK ? haha...Guess it !!!!
Really miss you galz and the one last time which i could celebrate and countdown x'mas with all of you.....
Our last celebration before my Uni life in Gurney Place, Penang. We were playing with Bubbles Spray, Drinking Starbucks Coffee, Present-Exchange Session etc.... I do really miss it alots alots
The time whn we were still very "gong bin"..... LOL
Time flies.... jz realised it's been 4 years time ago.....

Wishing you galz have a great future and face the future challege with courage and Living Ardently forever and ever..!!!! ( Me too.... still Learning and lookforward to it.... My wishes...)
Pray Hard for me !!!! =D

X'mas on Year 2007

I really wish my parents can be here to celebrate with me again.....

X'mas on Year 2009

The Pre-x'mas Dinner.....celebrating with Juniors and Senior at Baker's Corner.




Lastly and Again,

Enjoy the season which full of love and bless...
The day Jesus Christ came to the world....

*HUGS HUGS*
*Kiss & LOVE *

Another thing which i won't forget,

CONGRATSsss to my Little Brother who score 8 A's in PMR examination !!!!
Keep ur good work and I believe that u will hv a great future...!!!
Have Faith in YOU !!!!

只剩下。。大标题

这几天上课都是讨论Case Study
真的觉得自己很不行
读过的所有疾病都忘到七七八八
就像前几天讨论关于 Diabetic Ketoacidosis
我对这个疾病的记忆
只剩下大标题
里面的details 都忘了
连它怎样从 Diabetic Mellitus evolved to Diabetic Ketoacidosis
我全都忘了
真的很受挫

如果我对你的回忆
只剩下大标题
那该多好？
可悲的是，
我竟然还记得一清二楚
又不见得我可以把课业记得一清二楚
我的脑袋总是不听使唤地
徘徊在一些不该有的回忆

那天出席 Pre-X'mas Dinner 的聚会
遇见了 Senior ,与她聊了起来
问及她的哥哥毕业后回大马做医生，生活过得可好？
会不会LeveL 跟不上 或是 discrimination 的问题？
她只回答了我一句

“Of course, the life is definitely more hectic then the clinical yrs, but my brother is at home. No matter how hard the life is, YOU surely can tolerate BETTER at HOME."

她一讲完
！！！我简直举脚赞成耶！！！
很多人都不明白这种心情
只有与我一样situation的朋友才能了解那种心情

你说什么
就因为我可以成为医生
所以不管多艰难，
我都没有complain的权利
就因为我可以成为医生？？！！
什么天理？？？
难道就因为能成为医生，我就没资格诉苦吗？

她的问题永远是大件事
我的问题永远都是没有一回事
就因为我能完成梦想，就因为我能成为医生

p/s : so sorry....I promised not to blog any Emo post if possible..
but i just can't help myself frm Emo-ing after a chronic period of suppressing the depression feeling which embedded deep inside my heart.

但愿人长久

「但愿人长久」
苏轼

明月几时有 把酒问青天
不知天上宫阙 今夕是何年
我欲乘风归去 唯恐琼楼玉宇
高处不胜寒 起舞弄清影 何似在人间

转朱阁 低绮户 照无眠
不应有恨 何事长向别时圆
人有悲欢离合 月有阴晴圆缺
此事古难全 但愿人长久 千里共婵娟

刚从 Pre-x'mas Partae 回来，
其实这些照片早已经Upload 了，
只是很懒惰地帮它添上四方字以及上载。

有人曾经跟我说过，我的部落个 - 悲伤大于快乐，他们觉得我的世界都是被灰色笼罩着 所以我都尽量写一些比较乐观的事情 但此时此刻的我， 听着 Song from a Secret Garden 那悦耳动人的小提琴， 我的心跳及思绪就像那旋律般波动着 伤悲悠然而生

想回这三年的生活 每个月的考试，接踵而来的压力，让我几乎喘不过气来
这里发生的是与非，对与错，让我从中领悟了许多 但，我又真的领会了多少呢？ 我，不知道

直到现在，还是懵懵懂懂地过生活， 时间越久，我的目标及奋斗力却显得越模糊
有人问我，你是否后悔选择医学系了？
是否后悔从当初不听父母及亲戚的劝阻，一意孤行的要就读医学系？
我说，不后悔。

就像人生不变的定律， 得不到的东西永远是最美
所以 即使让我重头选择 我的答案应该还是会一样 ，
现在的我 得到了，却。。。累了

纵然疲惫，也缺乏当初的热忱 ，也才体会到原来做医生是要付出很大的代价 ，也才发现自己并不是想象中那么有野心，有拼劲的一个人 。但是，我有Turning Back 的权利吗？

路。。。都走了那么遥远了。。。 也许是那份不甘吧， 还有两年，我就成功了， 怎么说都好。。。我应该撑下去，对吧？

转眼间，即将结束 Theory Year 的生活， 要步入Junior Doctor 的另一个旅程碑
我心里真的很矛盾 即期待又害怕
真的很难想象有一天 我在帮一个病人做急救 Tracheostomy
他/她的生与死就掌握在我手中，我的感觉是什么呢？

而我又真的能承受那种压力及勇气吗？

12月2 日的月亮一样皎洁动人。。。
光阴却不留情面地一去不回头，让人不胜唏嘘
回忆 渐渐地模糊
承诺 慢慢地落色

爱情
只是一回眸一瞬间
相聚离开 在所难免
不再相信 永垂不朽

记得
你说过，想你的时候 只需要看看月光 你说我们的距离并不远，因为你就在月光的另一端想念着我 现在忙碌的你，有多久没停下脚步欣赏月光了？也许 你 已忘了。。。
来到了岜厘岛求学，娱乐并不多，多数的时间都是宅-ing + 啃书
所以才会那么的“写意”欣赏月光
试问有几个城市人会无端端地站在楼台欣赏月光呢？
我，只能套一句港戏所说的
我心照明月，明月照沟渠
感觉不到你温柔的双眼
却感觉到你已不再眷念
我们的距离 就像断了线的风筝 越离越远
回忆 是最可怕的敌人

第二天清晨醒来，
窗户一打开，看见那么明亮的月光
我又再次很无聊的，
把它拍了下来。
如果你问我， 槟岛的月光比较美，还是岜厘岛的月光比较美？
凭良心说
岜厘岛的海边，天空，风景，甚至月光都漂亮过槟岛的
尽管如此，我还是爱槟岛多一些 因为槟岛有我最爱以及最爱我的家人等待着我学成归来的一天

I'm Yours !!! Addicted to you ~

Sweetie , I like Alexander Rybak too since I viewed abt your post abt him...
oh gosh, his such a great violinist... ( i like him playing violin more den singing )
Absolutely agree with you...
Classical music is irreplaceable by the modern music which full of lyrics..
Sometime it's just the melody that melts people heart......
I'm MeltinG ......
( Don worry, I won't fight with u because i know u are cravingly to get marry with him.... LOL =P )

Again, about the song.... "the funniest" I'm Yours version !!!!
My son.... look, so cute !!!! haha.....

Feeling wanna pick up my guitar and learn violin too...!!!!
Am i too much ???
Guess so....
=.="""""

No..
My target...
At least i manage to play tis song "I'm yours" with the guitar
and
hv a basic of violin lesson ....

P/s : Gordon and Tey, I'm waiting you guyz to make my target become true
hehe.....
Thanks LOTsssSssssss

Beautiful Girl with the Great Vocals - JS !

Sonia,Wish I could strum like u one day...

Janice,Wish I could sing like u one day...

Nice Nice !!!

Optical Illusion

Can u see the four black dots which arranged vertically in the center of this picture ?
PLease Gaze into it for 15-30 sec...

and then,
Look at a white paper
The silhouette of Jesus Christ will appear on the white paper gradually...
( pls be patient )

......................................................

Exam just finished today !!! My final , The very LAst theoritical Exam !
Let's TOAST for it !!!
( oOps ...too early to toast ...still have another Practical Exam awaiting me at the end of this month )
Ok .. well, Let's Hold for it 1st ...

But definitely i can toast for this -
have a 10-12 hours sleep later
( after so many nights of insufficient sleep trying to cram all stuff in mind )
Time for Beddie.... Nights everyone
*wink*

“泼水“挡灾

为何老天爷总是要在我最忙的时候，发生一些意外。。。。
而且，每一次，一定是与“水”有关系。。。

犹记得，
在 Cardiology Disorders 考试前夕，
我的房间忽然爆水喉。。。
冲凉房就像破了堤般的，差点掩盖了我的房间　！　

在 Hepatobiliary and Alimentary Tract 考试前几天，
忘了关水喉，
从学校返家，看见自己的房间又再次淹水
我真的无话可说　！
自己的疏忽，怪得了谁？

这一次呢？
也不赖，
由于赶不上 syllabus
特地旷课提早回来啃书
房门一开，
眼见地上都是水
原来是我的 Water Dispenser 漏水
原本19 Litre 满满的水只剩一半
你是否可以想象当房间充满９Litre 水的情形吗？
再一次，我又要PEngsan 了

浪费了我整个下午的时间收拾残局
原本已经Delay的Planning 又再次的Delay

风波还没完哦。。。
晚上原本要好好读书却突然停电了
加上头痛，吃了两颗ParacetamoL
我都昏昏欲睡了。。。

再次的，PLanning Delayed !!!!
Pending Topic 越积越多。。。
Time Available 越来越少。。。

为了让自己心理好过一点
为了让自己觉得自己并非那么倒霉或“衰”
就把每次的意外
当做
“泼水挡灾”吧 ！
也许挡完灾，会有意外的收获？？！！

这一次考试让我即 害怕又兴奋
因为它将是我进入实习医生前的最后一次Teory 考试
（还有一次Practical 考试在28th Dec ，但暂时忽略它先）
兴奋 - 因为即将摆脱这无聊啃书的日子 ,步入我 Medical Life 另一个阶段
害怕 - 当然咯！还没读完，怎能不怕呢？

好了，
像 YT 你说的
我也成功又再多让费了15分钟在这部落格上
Let's Gimme FIVE !!!! YaY !!!
( Btw, YT ,你的报告完成了吗？)

让我无聊一下，
Thomas Alva Edison : I will not say I failed 1000times, I will say that I discovered 1000ways that can cause failure

Xin Yi : I will not say I always wasted the time, I will say that I hv discovered 1000ways that can cause futile effort

ok... Seriously need to get myself involved in study before it's too late
P/S : 还是改不了考试前会旷课的坏习惯,知道自己的 Time-Management 不好，还是执迷不悟。。。总是会做一些有的没的。。。自从Form 6 要改，还是改不到，总在最后一刻才懂得紧张 T.T

Shall I Eat / Not ?

The Biological Law : Activity of the Digestive Organs influences the whole organism and inhibit readiness to perform.

German Proverb : "Ein voller Bauch studiert nicht gern "
( A full stomach dislikes studying )

If
Empty stomach reduces efficiency as well
Sportsmen named this phenomenon as "Hunger Rest"

Shall I eat ? or NOt ?
But it's too late , I took a big meal as my lunch...
And Full stomach hates study...
so tat's NOt MY fault of being lazy
It's The biological Law made me to do so
Gotta take a siesta now !
hehe !!!

I should study hard after the nap =P

What do u thk ?

Some Sharing with u all some snippet of my books which i studied jz now...

Some interesting Phrase.... ( which not really related to the syllabus ) =P

• Men Do Not Fear Death , They Fear The Pain of Dying ... ( By Apsley Cheery - Garrard )

• Life is easy - If Difficult , It means :
  

YOUR EXPECTATION GREATER THAN YOUR CAPABILITY

so, what do u thk ???
Are u expecting too high or over estimating yourself ??

• A broken BoNe may bring Pain Without Suffering ----> ACUTE PAIN

• A broken HEart may bring Suffering Without Pain ----> CHRONIC NEUROPATHIC PAIN

Patient : Aeris Yeap
Diagnosis : Chronic neuropathic pain
Prognosis : Good ( Recover very Soon.... Thanks GUyz who help to treat her .... Love You all xoxo =D )