The Final Countdown

Time flies....Another year goes by...
2010 is just in 8hours time.
Another new chapter of life....

"Dream Lofty Dreams, and as you dream, so shall you become.
Your vision is the promise of you shall at last unveil "
- John Ruskin "

I know sometimes in the near future
My dreams may come true

"When a life trouble hit us like a tidal wave,
we can remember that God's compassion never fail. "
Lamentations 3:22

I'll become a better person
I believe it
I shall never ever let my past to ruin my present and future happiness

Live Ardently
Live Faithfully
Live Optimistically

Let us run and catch our vision in the coming NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR
everyone !!!!!
Toast !!!!!!!!!

Merry X'mas 感觉温馨亦脆弱的季节

Firstly, Wishing all of You
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009 !!!!!

Here some photos which i would like to share with u all...

X'mas On Year 2004
The year which i love it alot... My parents fulfill my dream bringing me to Genting Highlands and celebrate X'mas...
Look, my hair still very short and my face was a lil bit of "gong bin"
and my little brother ( Ting Han ) still far shorter den me...haha...but years go by... Now his height is 175cm dee...
My lovely family....really miss you all alots in x'mas...


Today, while i was having my lunch alone in room and watching tv.. The ringtone of "Canon B" rang up...
"We wish you a merry x'mas , We wish u a merry x'mas, We wish u a merry x'mas and a Happy New Year !!!! " My family was singing the song to me on another side of phone.
U know wat, I was like.... erghrrrr..... I felt a thrust of Warm, Touch and Love amidst the loneliness in Bali .... The end, My tears couldn't help but lingering in my eyes...
I tried very hard to resist myself from tearing because i don't want my parents worrying me..

X'mas On Year 2005
My beloved LYK .... u know LYK ? haha...Guess it !!!!
Really miss you galz and the one last time which i could celebrate and countdown x'mas with all of you.....
Our last celebration before my Uni life in Gurney Place, Penang. We were playing with Bubbles Spray, Drinking Starbucks Coffee, Present-Exchange Session etc.... I do really miss it alots alots
The time whn we were still very "gong bin"..... LOL
Time flies.... jz realised it's been 4 years time ago.....

Wishing you galz have a great future and face the future challege with courage and Living Ardently forever and ever..!!!! ( Me too.... still Learning and lookforward to it.... My wishes...)
Pray Hard for me !!!! =D

X'mas on Year 2007

I really wish my parents can be here to celebrate with me again.....

X'mas on Year 2009

The Pre-x'mas Dinner.....celebrating with Juniors and Senior at Baker's Corner.




Lastly and Again,

Enjoy the season which full of love and bless...
The day Jesus Christ came to the world....

*HUGS HUGS*
*Kiss & LOVE *

Another thing which i won't forget,

CONGRATSsss to my Little Brother who score 8 A's in PMR examination !!!!
Keep ur good work and I believe that u will hv a great future...!!!
Have Faith in YOU !!!!

只剩下。。大标题

这几天上课都是讨论Case Study
真的觉得自己很不行
读过的所有疾病都忘到七七八八
就像前几天讨论关于 Diabetic Ketoacidosis
我对这个疾病的记忆
只剩下大标题
里面的details 都忘了
连它怎样从 Diabetic Mellitus evolved to Diabetic Ketoacidosis
我全都忘了
真的很受挫

如果我对你的回忆
只剩下大标题
那该多好？
可悲的是，
我竟然还记得一清二楚
又不见得我可以把课业记得一清二楚
我的脑袋总是不听使唤地
徘徊在一些不该有的回忆

那天出席 Pre-X'mas Dinner 的聚会
遇见了 Senior ,与她聊了起来
问及她的哥哥毕业后回大马做医生，生活过得可好？
会不会LeveL 跟不上 或是 discrimination 的问题？
她只回答了我一句

“Of course, the life is definitely more hectic then the clinical yrs, but my brother is at home. No matter how hard the life is, YOU surely can tolerate BETTER at HOME."

她一讲完
！！！我简直举脚赞成耶！！！
很多人都不明白这种心情
只有与我一样situation的朋友才能了解那种心情

你说什么
就因为我可以成为医生
所以不管多艰难，
我都没有complain的权利
就因为我可以成为医生？？！！
什么天理？？？
难道就因为能成为医生，我就没资格诉苦吗？

她的问题永远是大件事
我的问题永远都是没有一回事
就因为我能完成梦想，就因为我能成为医生

p/s : so sorry....I promised not to blog any Emo post if possible..
but i just can't help myself frm Emo-ing after a chronic period of suppressing the depression feeling which embedded deep inside my heart.

但愿人长久

「但愿人长久」
苏轼

明月几时有 把酒问青天
不知天上宫阙 今夕是何年
我欲乘风归去 唯恐琼楼玉宇
高处不胜寒 起舞弄清影 何似在人间

转朱阁 低绮户 照无眠
不应有恨 何事长向别时圆
人有悲欢离合 月有阴晴圆缺
此事古难全 但愿人长久 千里共婵娟

刚从 Pre-x'mas Partae 回来，
其实这些照片早已经Upload 了，
只是很懒惰地帮它添上四方字以及上载。

有人曾经跟我说过，我的部落个 - 悲伤大于快乐，他们觉得我的世界都是被灰色笼罩着 所以我都尽量写一些比较乐观的事情 但此时此刻的我， 听着 Song from a Secret Garden 那悦耳动人的小提琴， 我的心跳及思绪就像那旋律般波动着 伤悲悠然而生

想回这三年的生活 每个月的考试，接踵而来的压力，让我几乎喘不过气来
这里发生的是与非，对与错，让我从中领悟了许多 但，我又真的领会了多少呢？ 我，不知道

直到现在，还是懵懵懂懂地过生活， 时间越久，我的目标及奋斗力却显得越模糊
有人问我，你是否后悔选择医学系了？
是否后悔从当初不听父母及亲戚的劝阻，一意孤行的要就读医学系？
我说，不后悔。

就像人生不变的定律， 得不到的东西永远是最美
所以 即使让我重头选择 我的答案应该还是会一样 ，
现在的我 得到了，却。。。累了

纵然疲惫，也缺乏当初的热忱 ，也才体会到原来做医生是要付出很大的代价 ，也才发现自己并不是想象中那么有野心，有拼劲的一个人 。但是，我有Turning Back 的权利吗？

路。。。都走了那么遥远了。。。 也许是那份不甘吧， 还有两年，我就成功了， 怎么说都好。。。我应该撑下去，对吧？

转眼间，即将结束 Theory Year 的生活， 要步入Junior Doctor 的另一个旅程碑
我心里真的很矛盾 即期待又害怕
真的很难想象有一天 我在帮一个病人做急救 Tracheostomy
他/她的生与死就掌握在我手中，我的感觉是什么呢？

而我又真的能承受那种压力及勇气吗？

12月2 日的月亮一样皎洁动人。。。
光阴却不留情面地一去不回头，让人不胜唏嘘
回忆 渐渐地模糊
承诺 慢慢地落色

爱情
只是一回眸一瞬间
相聚离开 在所难免
不再相信 永垂不朽

记得
你说过，想你的时候 只需要看看月光 你说我们的距离并不远，因为你就在月光的另一端想念着我 现在忙碌的你，有多久没停下脚步欣赏月光了？也许 你 已忘了。。。
来到了岜厘岛求学，娱乐并不多，多数的时间都是宅-ing + 啃书
所以才会那么的“写意”欣赏月光
试问有几个城市人会无端端地站在楼台欣赏月光呢？
我，只能套一句港戏所说的
我心照明月，明月照沟渠
感觉不到你温柔的双眼
却感觉到你已不再眷念
我们的距离 就像断了线的风筝 越离越远
回忆 是最可怕的敌人

第二天清晨醒来，
窗户一打开，看见那么明亮的月光
我又再次很无聊的，
把它拍了下来。
如果你问我， 槟岛的月光比较美，还是岜厘岛的月光比较美？
凭良心说
岜厘岛的海边，天空，风景，甚至月光都漂亮过槟岛的
尽管如此，我还是爱槟岛多一些 因为槟岛有我最爱以及最爱我的家人等待着我学成归来的一天

I'm Yours !!! Addicted to you ~

Sweetie , I like Alexander Rybak too since I viewed abt your post abt him...
oh gosh, his such a great violinist... ( i like him playing violin more den singing )
Absolutely agree with you...
Classical music is irreplaceable by the modern music which full of lyrics..
Sometime it's just the melody that melts people heart......
I'm MeltinG ......
( Don worry, I won't fight with u because i know u are cravingly to get marry with him.... LOL =P )

Again, about the song.... "the funniest" I'm Yours version !!!!
My son.... look, so cute !!!! haha.....

Feeling wanna pick up my guitar and learn violin too...!!!!
Am i too much ???
Guess so....
=.="""""

No..
My target...
At least i manage to play tis song "I'm yours" with the guitar
and
hv a basic of violin lesson ....

P/s : Gordon and Tey, I'm waiting you guyz to make my target become true
hehe.....
Thanks LOTsssSssssss

Beautiful Girl with the Great Vocals - JS !

Sonia,Wish I could strum like u one day...

Janice,Wish I could sing like u one day...

Nice Nice !!!

Optical Illusion

Can u see the four black dots which arranged vertically in the center of this picture ?
PLease Gaze into it for 15-30 sec...

and then,
Look at a white paper
The silhouette of Jesus Christ will appear on the white paper gradually...
( pls be patient )

......................................................

Exam just finished today !!! My final , The very LAst theoritical Exam !
Let's TOAST for it !!!
( oOps ...too early to toast ...still have another Practical Exam awaiting me at the end of this month )
Ok .. well, Let's Hold for it 1st ...

But definitely i can toast for this -
have a 10-12 hours sleep later
( after so many nights of insufficient sleep trying to cram all stuff in mind )
Time for Beddie.... Nights everyone
*wink*

“泼水“挡灾

为何老天爷总是要在我最忙的时候，发生一些意外。。。。
而且，每一次，一定是与“水”有关系。。。

犹记得，
在 Cardiology Disorders 考试前夕，
我的房间忽然爆水喉。。。
冲凉房就像破了堤般的，差点掩盖了我的房间　！　

在 Hepatobiliary and Alimentary Tract 考试前几天，
忘了关水喉，
从学校返家，看见自己的房间又再次淹水
我真的无话可说　！
自己的疏忽，怪得了谁？

这一次呢？
也不赖，
由于赶不上 syllabus
特地旷课提早回来啃书
房门一开，
眼见地上都是水
原来是我的 Water Dispenser 漏水
原本19 Litre 满满的水只剩一半
你是否可以想象当房间充满９Litre 水的情形吗？
再一次，我又要PEngsan 了

浪费了我整个下午的时间收拾残局
原本已经Delay的Planning 又再次的Delay

风波还没完哦。。。
晚上原本要好好读书却突然停电了
加上头痛，吃了两颗ParacetamoL
我都昏昏欲睡了。。。

再次的，PLanning Delayed !!!!
Pending Topic 越积越多。。。
Time Available 越来越少。。。

为了让自己心理好过一点
为了让自己觉得自己并非那么倒霉或“衰”
就把每次的意外
当做
“泼水挡灾”吧 ！
也许挡完灾，会有意外的收获？？！！

这一次考试让我即 害怕又兴奋
因为它将是我进入实习医生前的最后一次Teory 考试
（还有一次Practical 考试在28th Dec ，但暂时忽略它先）
兴奋 - 因为即将摆脱这无聊啃书的日子 ,步入我 Medical Life 另一个阶段
害怕 - 当然咯！还没读完，怎能不怕呢？

好了，
像 YT 你说的
我也成功又再多让费了15分钟在这部落格上
Let's Gimme FIVE !!!! YaY !!!
( Btw, YT ,你的报告完成了吗？)

让我无聊一下，
Thomas Alva Edison : I will not say I failed 1000times, I will say that I discovered 1000ways that can cause failure

Xin Yi : I will not say I always wasted the time, I will say that I hv discovered 1000ways that can cause futile effort

ok... Seriously need to get myself involved in study before it's too late
P/S : 还是改不了考试前会旷课的坏习惯,知道自己的 Time-Management 不好，还是执迷不悟。。。总是会做一些有的没的。。。自从Form 6 要改，还是改不到，总在最后一刻才懂得紧张 T.T

Shall I Eat / Not ?

The Biological Law : Activity of the Digestive Organs influences the whole organism and inhibit readiness to perform.

German Proverb : "Ein voller Bauch studiert nicht gern "
( A full stomach dislikes studying )

If
Empty stomach reduces efficiency as well
Sportsmen named this phenomenon as "Hunger Rest"

Shall I eat ? or NOt ?
But it's too late , I took a big meal as my lunch...
And Full stomach hates study...
so tat's NOt MY fault of being lazy
It's The biological Law made me to do so
Gotta take a siesta now !
hehe !!!

I should study hard after the nap =P

What do u thk ?

Some Sharing with u all some snippet of my books which i studied jz now...

Some interesting Phrase.... ( which not really related to the syllabus ) =P

• Men Do Not Fear Death , They Fear The Pain of Dying ... ( By Apsley Cheery - Garrard )

• Life is easy - If Difficult , It means :
  

YOUR EXPECTATION GREATER THAN YOUR CAPABILITY

so, what do u thk ???
Are u expecting too high or over estimating yourself ??

• A broken BoNe may bring Pain Without Suffering ----> ACUTE PAIN

• A broken HEart may bring Suffering Without Pain ----> CHRONIC NEUROPATHIC PAIN

Patient : Aeris Yeap
Diagnosis : Chronic neuropathic pain
Prognosis : Good ( Recover very Soon.... Thanks GUyz who help to treat her .... Love You all xoxo =D )

Bali Cliff ^_^

07.11.2009
As usual, will hang out with friends after exam ( This time was Dermatology )
Thanks to Armand chauffeuring us to the Destination -

Bali Cliff and The BEACH !!!!!

Here's some photos.....

The Cliff, Our shadowsSss ,the beach and the BEAUTIFUL SUNSET !!!!!

From The top of the cliff down to the Beach....There's almost 300 stairs !!!!
( Counted by Sebatik Boys...Not sure...maybe thy exaggerated ?? LOL )

I just know when I climbed up....my legs almost sinewless !!!!

The panoramic view from the cliff...

The setting Sun kindled the sky with orange and reds !!!!!!!
Breath-taking isn't it ???

The crystal clear water !!!!!!!!

My buddies in Bali - ARMAND !!!!!!
Thankyou for bringing me out jalan-jalan !!!!!!!
I really enjoyed !!!!!!

My Dear Bali Friends.......

I'm Guilt ( x3 )

Why Guilty X3 ??

Guilt 1 : Eat too Much ~ Today went Carefore ate alot for my dinner... My tummy was stuffed!!! -->> Pizza + Root Bear Float + Cheese Burger + Curly Fries + Fried Onion SprinG + Starbucks Mocca + Strawberry Pie !!!!! Oh My Gosh !!!!!!! ( Meng Hon, Don't jealous i ate alot, Don't worry, I still hv extra capacity to fit the food before i put on weight !!! LOL )

After a hardwork of Gym, Dancing, Swimming, Finally i lost 3 kg and become 48 kg... But today , I ate alot AGAIN...( Last sunday the Regalia Night, I gobbled alot too and not burned off the fat yet )

My fellow Lovely Friends, NEVER EVER praise my figure is Slim / Nice / Fit etc... because this will reduce my vigilance towards my food intake level..!!!!

Guilt 2 : Spend too much Money ~ bought a lot of unneccessary stuff.. More on Luxurious Expenditure.. A cushion Seat for my ass ( I had one in my room , but still wanna get a new 1 ) , Drinking Starbucks Coffee, Buying A biG Slice of Salmon cost Rp 40K ( My favouratteee ) , Changing Shampoo Brand to an expensive one, Some new clothes and rings etc etc....

oOpssss ... Sorry Papa And Mama....guess My Parents will PENGSAN after receiving the credit card Bills This month. Really sorry and Guilty..Promise will be more thrifty next month. This Month really spend alot ,OVER-BUGET + A DRIED-UP BANK ACCOUNT !!!!!! Sorriessssss .... =.="""""

Guilt 3 : Didn't Study Much - Although I sleep less ( I would considered myself insufficient of sleep if less then 7 hours ) , but doesn't mean that I study ALOT !!! Spending most of the time doing some Unnecessary stuff Like Surfing net, Obssessed with something worthless, Indulge In Facebook-inG, Changing My blog Theme ( spend alot of time to do so because forgot to back-up ), Chit-chat with friends until late night, Reading novel and Magazine instead of Medical Books, watching movie and drama etc etc....

I seriously need to study..... But what am I doing again ?? Composing Blog... oh Gosh..!!! Just can't resist my impulse frm laziness.... Exam on 14th December... Still have 2 weeks time..!!! In the coming 2 weeks time , i hv to suffer frm Insufficient sleep again... sigh..

What Happen to me???
Whn i was free, Sleep less...
Admist of Busy time, Sleep less....
Why I just couldn't SPARE MY TIME & Grab Some Rest instead of Wasting Time?

I'm GOin to Become BLACK-EYES-Piss !!!! LOL

P/S : No regret of hanging out today whilst everyone was studying so hard for the coming exam... Really enjoy with Angel , Angel's Parents and Elisa..... Thanks Guyzzz made my day !

A msg for Angel : U need to study hard after ur parents Fly off tomorrow... DON't CRY !!! ( haha..I know u won't...simply only..U are tough, I wish i could be like u... ) God Bless your Parents to have a safe journey Home... and Is my time for zzZZzzzZzz... ciaoz ! =D

Thankyou 谢谢

Thanks to Amos for your warm regards...
I'm Surprised and Touched frm the early greeting of your X'mas cards from Singapore.
U had made my day !!!
^^...Thanks...^^

谢谢 - Yoga Lim

累了一天回家没人等门
有灯坏了房间显得冰冷
肚子好饿想要吃碗泡面
热水瓶里开水一滴不剩
这里少了你的笑和眼神
好像什么都蒙上了灰尘
原来我才是最依赖的人
我需要你比你需要我深

谢谢你的照顾你的体贴
给我一个美好的世界
我把幸福看得太简单了点
你有多用心我却没有发觉
谢谢你的照顾你的离开
让我对爱有更多了解
现在才说也许太晚了一点
失去过的人会更珍惜一点

谢谢 to my Beloved Papa & Mama - I'm so sorries always being not patience in talking with you... and always vent out my frustration to you...Both of you are my greatest LovE of my Life. I'll fight for my future no matter how hard is it because I want both of you to be PROUD of having me as YOur Beloved Daughter !!!!
只有你们，不离不弃地一直爱着我。
老土一点，没有你们，也没有今天的我.

谢谢 to My sweetheart - frm being care and concern whenever I fall into the hole of depression
You too... I want u to be happy always. and really glad to see u have a great job !
好不容易从低谷中爬了出来，就不要那么容易地掉回进去了．
只要耐心等待，我们一定会找到属于我们的守护天使．

谢谢 to Meng Hon - Sometimes ur words is quite pungent but it's indeed true and meaningful. I understand and remember. Just I need a wake up call sometimes ( not sometimes, quite frequent actually LOL )..and Pls don't said I'm Stupid anymore, ok? I'll be SmArT !!! Hehe...

谢谢 to Gordon - Being concern, understanding and tolerate my tamper to the max.. companying me in phone whenever i was in the brink of despair. I hope u will have a great future and be ambitious and faithful , fight for ur future ,ok? You will be a great Engineer in the near future !

谢谢 to Chiew Yun - Always sms-ing with me when i was not in the mood... I knew sms frm Malaysia-Bali is quite costly. And you hv ur budget problem too..But u nvr leave as an orphan whn I was down...you will definitely answer my sms with great patience and concern.
Wish u best of luck in the future
现在的磨练一定会换取苦尽甘来的一天

^^CheErRrsssSss^^

CyclinG - Bash It !

17.10.2009
All of us decided to have a bash on cycling to Kuta ( The famous tourist spot in Bali )
We rented 4 mountain bite which cost us Rp20000 each. ( Around RM7.14 )
And Special Thanks to Arman for lending me his mountain bite.

So here, some view of the Double-Six Beach, Kuta
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Around 7am, before the journey commenced, take a shot 1st !!!
( this is mandatory , of course =P )

We have a short break and photo session somewhere near Kuta ( Forgot the name, Bali .... ?? )
Nice and intricate design of the building behind , what do u thk ???

We reached our Destination --->> Kuta BEach !!!!
( after 1.5 hours of cycling )
Bravo ~~~~
( It's kinda hard to place the bicycle on the beach because it tend to sink )

We cycled around the Kuta Beach Area...
Looking for some handsome white men... haha.. ( joke ! )
Some view of the Not-100%-Immaculately-Beach of Kuta
( yet still Farrrr better den Penang Beach, Oopss. gotta get punch frm my penang friends )

Whn we were searching for washroom around, we chanced on a nice Villa. Named Annora Villas
Note the wash room, such a sizeable 1 and their was plantation inside the washroom !!!
As usual, I won't miss out any chance in taking photo, eventhough that's a Washroom
A luxurious washroom ( sounds "38 " lol ), such a weird feeling whn pee infront of the mirror, gazing myself... LoL
I have to make a note here,
this villa equipped with a personal Pool just beside the lounge In Each Suite.
of course u hv to pay for a hefty price : US 400.00
...........................................................................

Around 4pm, whn the weather was friendly to my skin ( I won't get sun-burned at least ),
We coundn't wait to jump into the sea

Well....that's all for today...
We cycled back at Seven...
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11.10.2009
some photos share with you all...
Went for a Japanese Buffet named Ajisai Restaurant

Not a lavish buffet.. But indeed Stuffed our tummy to the max whn we gobbled the food in the 1st place... ( just couldnt helped it, too hungry !!! )
Not really nice though, prefer Malaysia 1... Or maybe i hv a chance to check out the genuine taste of Sushi buffet in Japan in the near future ???
( definitely not this 2years... *weeping* )

-End-

恶魔与天使的邂逅 - 终极篇

天使与恶魔原本就是属于不同世界的人
在一个偶然的机会，恶魔就这样不小心地闯进了天使的世界。 也许是上天的安排，原本两条地平线就这样有了交叉点。

遇见恶魔之前的天使，不懂得什么叫做爱。在这之前，天使以为拍拖就是等于走街，看戏，吃饭。认识恶魔之后，天使才发现原来爱一个人，并不是那么简单，是需要付出，需要责任，需要包容，需要信任及牺牲。

原本很爱走街看电影的天使，与恶魔在一起后学习到原来两个人在一起不一定要常常出去才叫做拍拖，不需要华丽的情景，不需花上半分钱，只要两个人在一起，能依偎着对方聊聊天，或是无声胜有声，那。。。就是幸福。或是简单地，手牵着手在公园散散步，一起煮泡面，那。。。也是幸福。

考试在昔，天使知道下午会与恶魔约会，所以天都没亮就醒来读书。下午约会时，天使虽然累了，但是有了恶魔的拥抱，天使即使再苦再累，也都是值得的。恶魔他教会了天使很多事情，他让天使知道这世界有好，也有坏的一面，告诉天使应该在适当的时候懂得保护自己。

在天使十八岁的生日，恶魔给了天使一个毕生难忘及感动的生日。一个以粉红色为主题的生日因为恶魔认为粉红色很适合天使。粉红色的爱心蛋糕，粉红色的上衣，加上十七朵粉红色玫瑰因为恶魔说天使本身就是第十八朵玫瑰。

曾经有人跟天使说过，上帝创造人类，都会差遣不同的任务给不同的人。也许，上帝差遣给恶魔的任务就是要帮助天使长大，做人要成熟稳重一点，也教会了天使什么才叫做爱一个人。

爱，不是只有一味的接收，也要懂得付出。
也许，恶魔已经完成了他的任务，离开了天使。。。回到自己的世界。

今年的生日，恶魔不再给天使拨电话，只给了天使简讯。天使虽然失望，但并不怪恶魔。
恶魔曾经给了天使无私的爱，恶魔可以把一切最好的都献给天使，剩下的才留给自己。 恶魔也曾经让天使成为世界上最幸福的人。

“如果在这世界，从来都没人爱过你，那么，就只有一个可能性，就是这世上从来都没有我的存在过。现在，一直，永远”

这是恶魔跟天使说过最感动的话。 虽然这句话不再兑现，但是会永远埋藏在天使心里深处。

虽然恶魔曾经说过永远不会忘记他与天使之间的回忆。可，回忆是靠不住的。。。
人的回忆，会因为时间的流逝，慢慢地褪色。。。慢慢地，恶魔将会忘记与天使在一起的小小细节。。只有摄影可以把瞬间的回忆变成永恒。所以，天使会很珍惜她与恶魔所留下来的照片，希望恶魔也一样。

天使跟恶魔说过，“跟你在一起就好像发了一场梦，感觉很不且实，因为太美好了。” 恶魔却说，“不会啊。。。我现在确确实实地站在你面前，哪里可能会感觉梦幻呢？你这傻瓜，真是傻得可爱。”
但是，现在对天使来说，恶魔。。。他好像又再变得很梦幻了，因为恶魔就像遥不可及般的，离天使越来越远。与恶魔在一起的点点滴滴，就像发了一场梦般的，一场很长很长的梦。如今，梦醒了，是时候该忘记了，不准流泪，学习不再伤心或是痛苦。

也许天使不再是恶魔所追求的幸福，又或许天使不再是恶魔的幸福。。。 所以，天使应该放手祝福。。。
只希望，恶魔在忙碌的生活中，偶尔会想起天使，那么， 就足够了。也希望，想起天使的那一瞬间，嘴角扬起的是笑容，想起的回忆是甜蜜。　

如今，恶魔与天使正在不同的城市努力，这样的我，那样的你，也许要很久才能再相聚了。。。

天使她会等待着，下一个来到她世界的守护天使。。。与她一起创造一个新的，美好的未来。。。。期待着~ =)

An Emerging Trend - TTM （暧昧）

What's TTM ?
TTM - Teman Tapi Mesra
来了岜厘岛念书，认识了这个 Acronym。
在这里真的很流行这个 Trend.
何谓呢？？？
TTM 的意识就是 - 超过了友谊，却不到爱情

举例 1 ：有一对朋友搬在一起住，虽然是分房睡，但整个hostel 都没其它的朋友，就只有他们俩朝日相对，互相照顾及关心， 但，不是情侣？？？

举例 2 ：有一对朋友在一起两个月，分手了，因为他们都觉得已朋友方式在一起比较舒服。在大学，下课时间都还是会粘在一起，偶尔还会手牵手，但，只是朋友？？

让我告诉你，TTM 的好处，真是多得很。。。
1。 可以牵着对方的手，可以明目张胆的抱着对方，但是不需要负责任。
2。 当你孤单时，或是“发骚”， 想要寻找一些片刻的爱情滋润，找你的TTM 就最好不过了！

3。 当你想甩开他/她时，就只需要说 ：我们只是朋友

4。 当他/她想约束你时，就只需说 ：你以为你是我的谁？朋友而已，你没资格约束的我的自由

5。 可以同时脚踏多船，对方没资格生气你，因为我们只是朋

友 ！

这个世界怎么了？ 爱情又是什么东西 ？
现在的人，喜欢搞暧昧，也不想真正投入

怕付出了真心，得到了伤害？
怕负担责任，自己会喘不过来？
怕被约束 ，失去了自由？

给大家一个忠告
如果你是一个玩得起的人，那么就继续你的TTM 吧。。。
在你玩的同时，你是否肯定对方也是这样的人？
如果对方不是，你真的会把那个人搞得伤痕累累,你忍心吗？

也许有些人是因为曾经被爱情伤得很深，所以不再相信爱情，选择了TTM 让自己好过

也许有些人本来就不想只守住一个人，所以以 TTM 的名誉给自己借口

也许。。。 也许。。。

你还没遇上对的人？或许你就是如此的自私？

是对是错，你又有什么看法呢？

高兴就好？

如果你一生人，都没真正的付出过，没真正全心全意的爱过，你不觉得人生是白费了吗？

同样的道理，也可以放在友情上

也许会被出卖，也许会被伤害

但是，我还是宁可挺而走险，选择后者，

宁可受伤流泪，也要真正的活过

活得真实，活得诚恳，

这样才叫做人生！！！

My Birthday 2009

A very belated post abt my birthday which had been over a month.... =P

A Printed Photo of mine on a cloth.... with God Words imprinted on it...
That's WY idea, you can read my mind very well..Thanks so much...

" You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again?
It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead thy put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house." Matthew 5 : 13-16

Planning to take it home ( of course, Penang ) , frame it and hang it in my room in Penang as our memory forever - A Sweet Memory of me and my lovely friends in Bali. =)

I Got a new watch as my birthdie pressie...
Thanks to JY hunting the pressie for me during the last sem holiday in Malaysia.
Thanks to SE for designing and the pressie-wrapping... I Like it very much...
it's full of love ~~~~~~~~~ thanks thanks...!!!
On the Right photo, voila ! all da wishes ...
Most of the wishes, asked me to look forward but not to the past...
yeah....i know.... Thanks for all of ya all concen...I'll live happily ever after !!! ( trying still ~)
One of da wishes frm Allison , I like it so much and wanna share with all of you :

"one day, the villagers decided to pray for rain.on the day of prayer everyone gathered and only 1 boy cam with umbrella. THAT's CONFIDENCE.
When you throw a 1 yr old boy in the air, He laugh because he knw you'll catch him. THAT's TRUST.
Everynite we goto bed, we re not sure that we will wake up tomorrow, but we still have many plans for the coming day. THAT's HOPE.."

12.00 am sharp, all of my hostel mates came to my room...
Look, my tired + sleepy face... and my "gong gong" ( funny ) hair - the fringe... haha... because i cut it myself whn i bored of study alone in room.
My birthday, two days before "The emergency care and medicine" Exam... so we just hv a very simple celebration and present-giving session...Though is simple, but really appreciate !!!

Thanks to JY for the pringles ( Thanks God that my pimples didn't popped up in crop on the 2nd day after i gobbled the whole pringle just in 1hr time ,else , I gotta beat you up for harming me Indirectly... LOL )
Thanks to MY for the chocolate .... Sweet choco frm UK... Thanks... ( you really surprised me.. though we are not as close as we used to be but u purposely brought up the choco....I was touched ! )
Thanks to SE for the lunch "da bao" and Mocha. ( You put me in surprise too..I nvr expect u would came up with a lunch and Mocha whn everyone was mad in their preparation of exam.
I don't need to go out "da bao" for food ALONE during my birthday at least. If it does, it'll really make myself feel so pathetic. But It's NOT, you would nvr know how much i appreciate that though was just a simple lunch and coffee.)

每个朋友都希望我可以放开过去，活得开开心心。。。
谢谢你们的疼爱。。。
真的很不好意思，常常让你们失望了
又一年的过去，我真的很希望我可以过得更好！！！
一个新的手表，一个崭新的开始
一个美好的开始。。。
芯仪，你一定咬紧牙根
RUN AND CATCH MY VISION !!!!
( Birthday wishes frm Winda )

（P/s : 谢谢你，JY . 在我生日的那天陪我通宵谈话到接近 3am.. 我知道那时候我们都来不及读完我们的书。。。谢谢你的时间及陪伴。也谢谢你的忍受，我知道有时候你要忍我的脾气和我一点都不拐弯抹角/尖利的言语，我也在努力的改着，只是有时候真的会忍不住, 原谅我的"无心伤害"，ok ? =P 以后我一定要找个像你那样脾气好的bf... 哈哈。。。）

考试的气氛

不喜欢 考试的气氛
整个宿舍安静得 连针 掉下来的声音也都听得见

天还没亮 就得醒来 啃书

不喜欢 考试的气氛
整天就只有在房间 对这那四壁墙以及书本
喧哗的声音少了
一切显得很安静
不喜欢太安静
因为我的思绪会不听话的飘走
想起一些不该想的事

不喜欢 考试的气氛
因为得靠咖啡及茶 帮我提神

不是 机器人
却希望自己是个机器人
因为可以二十四小时 不眠不休地 工作

希望自己的头脑像个Hard Disk
读了就不会忘记
不想记起的回忆也可以 Maually 的删掉
该 多好啊？？？

不讲了
好像您说的，
都到了低潮 还能坏到哪里去？

为了回家，
为了明年的农历新年，
为了可以准时毕业，
再哭再累
也要撑下去
每个人都说我能
。。。。。那么，我一定能。。。。。

Kya-Kya Nite, My Plantation & Heels

20.09.2009
KYAーKYA NIGHT

就在完成挑战 volcano 使命的第二天，我们一般朋友去了 Bali Art Center...参加岜厘一年一度的＂走走＂节．
这个节目主要是for这里印尼华侨的一个Party. 你可以在这里听到现场献唱华语歌曲，华人舞蹈，及华人食物．．．就像是岜厘岛的唐人街啦．．．

你们可要知道在岜厘岛的华侨长得一副华人样，却不会讲华语，更不用说认识华文字了，而且也很少听到中文歌因为可以接触华语的机会少之又少．所以，自从我来了这里求学后，看到身边的印尼华侨都是满口印尼话，其实，你们知道吗？
他们心里及表情都流露出很羡慕我们马来西亚华人会操华语．时常叫我教他们说华语．有时真的很感激马来西亚政府，至少我们有机会学习中文，会读这些方块字．所以，来了这里，人也变得比较容易知足．

而且，我也从很Pro-英文，不怎么爱华语－－－＞＞变成两种语言我都欣赏，尤其是话语，你不觉得古人真的很厉害吗？他们可以坪出每个完全不同结构的方块字．真的超赞地！

＊＊华人，应该要已自己的华文感到骄傲　！！！＊＊

－在Bali Art Centre 的外观－
这样美的雕像，当然是要留影咯！

－　Bali Art Centre 的进口处　－

看得出是什么吗？？　
是的，猪．岜厘岛著名的食物－BaBi GulinG
( 译：旋转的猪．．哈哈．．我乱翻译的啦．．）

OMG , 我最爱的Nasi Lemak!!!
虽然岜厘岛是印尼地方，但这里是找不到Nasi Lemak的哦！
只有在这个夜晚（Kya-Kya Nite) 品尝到我爱的Nasi Lemak !!
（虽然还是大马的原汁原味比较让人垂言，但是暂时顶着先吧！）

还有舞狮舞龙的演出哦　！！
真的很有新年的气氛，希望时间快些飞逝，
我已迫不及待回家了．．．

21.09.2009
在Kya-Kya Nite,有个 environmental friendly campaign，你只须已入门票就能换取环保带或小小的盆栽．

我换取了三个盆栽，分别为他们取名
（只是好玩，不要笑我无聊,盆栽也要取名哦？！）

看到右手边的照片，从我房间窗口的风景。

27.09.2009
参加朋友，Tuscianthi Birthday 所拍下的
多谢 Eng Eng 你逼我拍这样的照片...哈哈! ( 第一次耍性感... 如何??? )

先在 Facebook post 上这张照片，获得朋友们的青睐，不是我的人哦，而是我的高跟鞋！
哈哈（人，也有啦。。。 *厚脸皮* ）

这是最后一次我穿这双高跟鞋，特别的感触,因为是你在我Form6 Dinner 陪我一起买的，也是你送的。这四年来，它的皮慢慢地剥落，鞋底的皮也因剥落而不大稳，要用Glue fix It.但我还是坚持要穿，至少远看看不出啊。。但是，就在这天，它的细带也断了，真的没办法，必须丢了。。。我真的不舍得丢掉你送我的每一样东西。（就像你送我的NIke Watch,可以参考回我之前的Blog Post - My Nike Watch 15.6.2009 的post ) 每丢掉你送我的东西，就感觉像 你 又再离我越远了，就好像我又再丢掉我们之间的回忆。虽然人们都说，

把回忆留在脑海里就是最珍贵，但 ---

回忆 - 很抽象，
我这人很肤浅， 所以我都尽量保护你所送的东西，
留你送我的东西在身边感觉比较实际
可，随着时间的流逝，你送我的东西。。。
一样一样的坏了...需要丢了... =(

努力的安慰自己，旧的不去，新的怎么来啊？
我应该高兴，因为我将要有新的高跟鞋咯！！！ 呵呵。。。

The Challege - Scale The Volcano !

Let the photos be my narrator of this post =)
18.09.09

Around 8pm, reach Kintamani ( The Area around volcano ) hunting for food. Finally, manage to grab some food in an Eatery.
The funny things was , this eatery has 2 different menu with different prices ( of course, 1 for Foreigner , 1 is the Local Price ) . Luckily, we talk in Bahasa Indonesia with thm... Pretending we are the LoCaL here... haha... so, Anyone who come here, Come to find me 1st ? ok.. I'm quite good in pretending as the Local here... ( although is the cacat one ) haha...

Around 10pm, After nego the price and chose the plan we decided, the tour guide placed us at their Rest room whilst wating the time to come.
Note the Lower Left 1 : Our SMELLY shoes... lol
the Upper Right 1 : Look, Everyone was listening to my instruction Attentively. =P

19.09.09

Around 3am, we started our journey .
The 1st time experience of hiking in the midnight with the torch light under the guidance of the tour guide. ( we have 4 tour guides to lead 16 of us )

Around 6am, reach the top of the Volcano, waiting for the Sunrise to emerge frm the Horizon.
TOo BAD , the fog was just too heavy hindering our view in appreciating the sunlight.
Look, Everyone were Waiting for the Sunrise to appear.... wait and wait .... urgh~~~

Around 7am, Eventually, the SUN !!!!! that we longing for so long !!!!
We took our breakfast up there ( bread with banana sliced between and Eggs )

Note The Upper Left pic : The crater.. it's hot...
We put the raw egg inside the crater , trying to cook it.. hehe
15minutes later, can you see ??? Is half cooked already !!!

Around 7.30am, we continue to walk, oh Nope, was climb around the volcano. We still clad in the fog , impeding our view of the breathtaking scene.

Another scenery frm top of the volcano.
I wondered, maybe we have had better view if the fog was cleared...

The top left pic : The ONLY hut on the volcano for you to rest and take some hot drink and food.
oh yeah, NO toilet provided. So, for those who had an urgency...uh hum, you hafta pee at the grass behind ... oops ...
The bottom 1 : The Exhausted Tour guide taking his nap.

Self-Admiring AGAIN .... haha... =P

The dog of the tour guide there, Golden Trinity !!!!! Her name - NIKI
She was pregnant u know...!!!!! Can't imagine a preganant lady could scale the mountain !

The view, mesmerizing isn't it ????

Group snap shot !!!!! + the tour guide !!! + Niki !!!

Around 8.30am, journey of descending commenced !!!

On our way back to the foot of the volcano...

Around 10am, reached the foot and had our respite here.. Of course,Won't forget my snapshot !

The snap-shot before Balik KamPung !!!!

The END !!!! =D

P/S : whn i was ascending the hill, was not that harsh but when you "hike" around the volcano, that's tough becuz it was steep and slippery. Moreover, some of the path was very narrow, you would just fall off the mountain if you had a slipped foot , NO joke !!!
When descending the mountain, every stepped i made was indeed painful especially on my knee. The pressure just bumped against my knee... urgh~ Microtrauma !!! Would I get OsteoArthritis whn i get older?
In a nut shell, Strongly recommend you guyz to try it out whn you are young !!!! =D

很开心，
我的岜厘岛生活
不留白 ！
年轻人，当然是要干一番惊险的事情啊！