对梦想负责

刘伟 - 中国达人秀的冠军 --〉armless pianist !!! 征服了多少人的心和眼泪，感动了多少正在悲伤的心。。。

虽然
嗓音没像张雨生般的动人，
样子也没像王力宏般的帅气，
弹琴的功力也没像Maxim般的怔撼，

但是他弹出来的第一颗音符，唱出第一句的 “my life is brilliant... ”
心，莫名的感动，眼泪也不知觉地掉了下来

在我对自己的梦想怀疑时，在我埋怨自己的梦想时，在我后悔着干嘛选择这梦想时，
听到了他说的一句话---〉

要对自己的梦想负责任

我的人生只有两个选择
要么就赶紧的死，
要么就精彩的活着
没有人规定钢琴一定要用手弹！！！

他的这几句话真的振奋人心，就像评审说的，我们这些健全的人看了他的表演和态度后，没资格去批评或埋怨对社会的不满。。。应该要像他般精彩，快乐的活下去。。。！！！

痛了，就该放手

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”



你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到
他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他



联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好
不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想



记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担



这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
自然会有人为他担心为他着急
不用你来费心



那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
也许曾经你们是相爱过的
但是请记住那是曾经
过去的就是过去了
如果大家真的适合在一起
那么当初就不会分开
无论是谁提的分手都一样
这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的
不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了



分开以后
如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话
那么这段感情就是过去了
他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合
而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己
你们当初如何如何相爱
不可能那么容易就分手的
这样只会让你更加难以放弃
却不会让对方再次回头选择你
除非大家都有意要和好



否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的
所以尽早打消这个念头吧
至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白
不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜
这样做一点意思也没有
他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
不是你做不好是你不想做
你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧
别说什么他离不开你的



其实分明就是你离不开他
他若是离不开你
他就不会不要你
整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你
不懂事的人是你
难道你没看出来吗
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式



傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对．



傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．



傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想．



傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．早上不再有人工闹铃．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．她已离开．一切．画上了句点．



傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．



傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．



傻孩子．
所有的人都对你有信心．
所以．你也要充满信心．
你是坚强的．积极的．乐观的．洒脱的．
以前是．以后也会是．
总有一天．那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活．



傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．



现在我对你很好、很好、很好,
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的

对你好了。。。
因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。
原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。
其实这个世界，真的没有非要谁不可，
走自己的路，别回头

By : Lui Jia Jing

这是一篇在facebook 看到的文章。。。真的很有意思！就跟你们大家分享吧 =）

Air On the G-String ( G弦之歌 )

巴哈 （Johann Sebastian Bach ）有一次在宫廷演奏的时候，
他的大提琴被人动了手脚，除了G弦之外，其它弦都断了，
当所有人都等着他出臭的时候，
他却只用了一条G弦，即兴的演奏了一首咏叹调，
也就是现在很有名的G弦之歌

他告诉了我，
人生不管在多困难的时候，
都可以完成最动人的乐章
从此以后，只要当我快要熬不住的时候，
我就会想起 -
D大調第3號組曲 ：G弦之歌 ( D Major Suite No. 3 in G-String )

-下一站幸福-

Sermon of the Day

It's been about a semester since I last went for church. Really feel so bad of myself. After the exam, I knew I should go church. I knew that I shouldn't only seek for God in the time of despair...

Today sermon is very meaningful to me and all of you as well... [ John 5 ]

Pastor Wayan said,"If u do things in the same way you should be, you can never get yourself into a new picture.If u always do thing tat u've always done,u'll be in a pic that you'hv always been. Just Like a dog always chasing it's tail..."

Yes ! No doubt, is moving apparently, nevertheless, in the same place, in the same circle cyclically , and NEVER move on...

We repeat our routine work everyday...again and again... that's why we easily get bored and dull with our life... because most of the time,we merely repeat the things we should do. This can be applied in myriad fields, Not only study, but also in working, in your love life, in your relationship with God, your rela with family & friends.. etc. Anything, Everything...!!!

Although I'm Not blind physically but I blind & paralaysed mentally and spiritually, I couldn't see the future and my sight of vision is retarded and blurred ! Dear Lord, Please Keep my vision back. I seriously don't want like the dog... keep chasing it's tail... I have been obsessive compulsive in certain matter, I fervently wish ....

• To change "have been" to "used to Be"
  
• Abandon all the negative thoughts
• Reignite the almost-fade-off fire and passion which embedded inside my heart !

Thanks Winda for your birthday wishes, I love one of your sentences " Never look back to the past, but RUN and CATCH your VISION ! "

Let go of your tradition
Expect something FRESH and EMBRACE the NEW way !!!
CheersSsssss... All my beloved friends... =D

Rise & Shine - A Message for YOU

This is quite a long post I knw... Hopefully not too tedious for you..but is indeed meaningful for me and readers.My dear friends could you pls read till the end of this post if possible =P.. THanks for supporting !!! Hehe...

It was the last night of the Social Work / KerSosKes ( Kerja Social Kesehatan ) at the rural areas. The weather was getting colder as the night grew darker. Also, due to the rain literally mounts the coldness of the night. The heavy fog encompassed everyone and it's just 3meters sight I could barely seen.

From the previous night experience I had, I din't expect to have a good shelter for my slumber. I would be satisfied if I could just sleep at the usual places that I did as the previous night ( which been a Not-So-Good condition, but Not the worst,at least! ) Some of the local coursemates seemed pleasant and friendly in the light of day, but as bedtime approaching, they just simply moved away your sleeping bag, Leaving you to sleep at a foul and humid places WITHOUT any consideration. I tried to talk with her, with NO success. She just pointed other places and said,"Oh yeah, you can just sleep there" But I knew the places she meant was other coursemates places. I'm NOT that BRAINLESS !!!! I wouldn't just "steal " people places to sleep. So, I just gave up in nego with that low-rent girl, carrying my sleeping bag and leaved the room.

I stood outside the room, sinewless. My mind in trance state, nowhere to go. Trying to call up my friends, nevertheless all gone to sleep. I stared blankly at the sky, raindrops fell upon my shoulder, heavy mist impeded my view, felt the strong wind and cold air were blasting over me. Memories of my papa & mama,holidays,those fugitive hours when i was pampered,cuddled in arms REMINISCED, FLOODING my mind and the tears of Self-pity lingering around my eyes. I was striving hard not to let it fall, made it into "intra-orbital" tears... I JUST FELT SO LOST !

A voice broke the silent of the night,"Aeris, what u doing there?" Adrian appeared to me. I told him everything and with the soft & tender tone,he spoke,"I talked to them for you." I stoped him immediately because I didn't want to make any scene. "You just leave me alone,I'll find places for myself to sleep," I answered. He said,"You should tell me earlier and I'll definitely help you because XXXXXXXXX ( I couldn't mention here ) ,right?" I was so touched by his words, this is what we called True friends meant to be. He went to find a girl ( Jovita ) to keep me in companion and he lent me his mat to put on the dirty & humid non-tiles floor. And Now, I had a mat to put on that foul places, at least. He then retreated to guy's camp. Jovita helped me to clear off the wet,puking,full-of-footstep newspapers with the torchlight in her grasp and unfolding the mat for me. Jovita was such a kind & caring girl, she sat beside me ,wait and make sure that I was cuddled in my sleeping bag although I told her many times that I'm OK.

The next morning, I was tired and angry.But I was uncertain about the object of my anger.I hadn't even seen the face of those girls who had offended me because the room was out of electrical supply last night.

Today, as I read "our journey", the testimony of the author is almost similar to what I experienced.I caught in surprise ! Through this incidence, I learned something : The trip seemed to be a disaster,but God used that foiled KersosKes to show me a scriptural truth "we do not wrestle against flesh & blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms"(Ephesians 6:12). It would'hv been futile for me to show anger/bitterness to those who had caused us to lose sleep. Their behavior had been prompted by the evil one who had spiritually darkened their hearts and eyes.So, instead of asking why they behaved so brainless/wrongly, my Q became : How am I reflecting God's light to them?

Me & JoJo ( Our 1st shot ever ! So happy..!!! Some of my friends said we looked alike, are we?? nvm, it's my pleasure to look alike with u because you are leng lui...LoLx )

I hate my infirmity in dealing many expects of my life. Still striving hard to be BOLD in resisting all sorts of evil and hurdles. Inner-strenth building up still in progess >>>>......

Thanks so much to A & J, maybe you won't get to know this post but I will always remember your helping hand in my heart FOREVER.

Let's rise, permit the rays of Goodness shine in every nook of our lives & may we courageously reflect that light to the lost world

风信子的故事 The Hyacinths

如果要让枯萎的风信子再开花

一定要把外面的生长物通通剪掉

这个道理很简单

就像励志书籍 不是有说过吗

“啊 愚蠢的人们 啊

为何总是对过去念念不忘　？

把已死的花朵留在身边

即对过去无法割舍

又没有办法迈向未来”

你说是不是很有道理呢　？

Grape Hyacinths

The Blue Hyacinths

－－败犬女王－－

The Rising Great Star - Susan Boyle

Nowadays, who doesn't know Susan Boyle?? Everyone is talking about her.. The WORLD KNOWS HER....!!!! An undisputable truth that she really opened our eyes that great talents are not only hidden in good looks.... There is always HOPE in life awaiting for you....and never ever judge a person by its cover...!

Susan Boyle - who suffered frm Learning disability, with her courageous in participating in Britain Got Talent Season 3 has been stirred up the hope of life in every corner of the world ! No doubt that after her first performance at the audition, she has won everyone’s heart. “I Dreamed a Dream” by Les Miserables is the song she sang..Everyone eyes is brimming with the tears of touch.

Learning disability is an “invisible” disability. People don’t understand it because they can’t see it. It is caused by the way the brain develops, and in Susan Boyle’s case was due to deprivation of oxygen at birth. A people suffered frm learning disability does not mean that he/she has mental health problems or dyslexia but it's harder for thm to communicate and learn new things.

What can i said is she really inspired me not to be giving up easily... although life is full of trials, hurdles and uphill battles tat u gotta pass through... You may Rest BUT never Quit !!!! Grateful to God that gave you those trials and mold you to be a better person... and you will find out your capability is surprisingly beyond your expectation because God has His plan in everyone's life...

In the midst of a crooked & depraved generation,
in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life

Faith In Tribulation

In the midst of tribulation, persecution, soul-famine, compulsion …
We have to learn to stand still and
We have to rejoice in the hope of glory of God

More den tat, We rejoice in our sufferings,
By knowing SUFFERINGS produces ENDURANCE and PERSEVERANCE
And then, ENDURANCE and PERSEVERANCE produces CHARACTER,
And Lastly, CHARACTER produces HOPE !
By seeing SUFFERING as a BLESSING ,
Through this, We learn to adopt and instill a joyful attitude..!!!

When u meet trials of various kinds… asked yourself : why?
Because “ the testing of your faith produces STEADFASTNESS…”
Once u get over each of the trials and conquer it ….
You are MORE then CONQUERORS ….
Ergo, all my dear friends….Don’t Fear in counteracting all the hurdles…
In the End, We will reap more then we expect..
Let’s work hard together and reach our final destination….

**Ray_AngeL** - tis I wanna share with you... You owe ur perseverance although the environment seemed to be so negative ,yet what you hv to do is don’t give up….that’s no turning back but jz continue until u accomplish ur destination. BE OPTIMISTIC !!!

**C.Yun** - Don’t admire me, because act I really not as perfect as you thk…. I still hv some times which I will go astray… I’m Not always as rational as what u thk…Instead, I really admire your courageous in facing tribulation.. IF I were you, I might not as calm as you..Lastly, You own the right to CRY…and I’ll always listen to you… =)

**Angelina** - Tis I read frm “our Journey”…wish to share with you too..Is in Roman 5:1-4.. I thk we really need tis in this very moment… Whn u are facing enormous pressure, remember this Roman 8:28

**J.Yee** - Thanks for always listen to me again and again everyday without complaining I’m tedious…Really Thanks SOOOOoooOOooooo MUCH !!!!! Don’t know how to convey my gratitude in words….so what i can give is just - - ->>> Muakss Muakss……ssss…

**Baby DeviL** - Hopefully someday u can “transform” frm Devil to ANGEL….ok?? Always remember your words..Attitude, but not aptitude tat determine your Altitude. Remember, that's nothing can thwart you... I MISS YOU

**Y.Yik Ooi** - So Glad tat time and distance does not affect us.. I’m glad that we still can chat like the old times…really miss it so much…You hear me & I hear you too.. And I really admire your ingenious writing from your blog… It’s touch and ReaL.. I become your “fans” dee….haha… Frm the blog, can know that u are insightful and you are a deep thinker. I hv confidence that you will be a very successful lawyer in the future… Let’s Jia You !!!! Wish to meet you soon.. =)


LASTLY, SPECIAL THANKS TO ----------------->>> W.Y.LEE !!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS RESCUE ME WHEN IM DROWNING….Thanks that you didn’t leave me to be forsaken in the dark and stormy night.. THOUSANDS OF THANKS