A Not Really "Nth Special" Post ,PLs Read !

• Rose early at 6 in the morning , Had a cup of hot cappuccino and then facebook-ing
• 8am - Had a cup of Instant CereaL and dressed up myself .1st time wore so formal with the leather shoe because of the rumours around saying that The Doctor in pediatric department is very strict and particular in formal attire )
  
• As Jia Yee and Me on our way heading the hospital, my leather shoe which i had been "fridged" in my room for 2 yrs was TORN in a sudden.... Oh Gosh !!!!

Thanks Cheok for sending me home... =)

Mum, I need a NEW leather shoe !!!!! hehe

• Ringed up Cheok immediately for help to send me home and changed another shoe.. I just have one fomal leather shoe...so No other way, Eventually , a funny matching of Nike Sport Shoe matched with the fomal top and pants... =S
• In the Pediatric Department, Thank God The doctor didn't noticed my shoe.... ( phuih ~~~~ ) But still, she commented abt my hair too long and should tied up =.=""" . She said we work as doctor , helping people but Not like the customer service at the counter ,So the appearance better DON't BE TOO Fashion-Sense. Else the patient won't have confidence on us. Oppss.... SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR SHORT whn i enter clinical yrs at March next year ???
• But i RESPECT that doctor, she really a GOOD doctor although a lil bit of strict...hehe...
• 2.00pm Beck frm hospital and start cleaning room...
• 3.30pm Only able to take my 1st BRUNCH.... Nasi Goreng ( sigh ...)
• Saluting myself... frm 6am arose til 3.30pm only took the 1st meal...
  
• I knew that's unhealthy and gastric-harming but the hospital food is really sucks...

Mama, U see I surely can slim up by this semester... Whn i bec in Jan , wanna give u all a shock...I want all of u say "wow.....u look slim !!!! " And not like the last semester holiday , " wah...u really getting fatter and fatter.... " number of friends said like that. =(

My mama even worse, gave me a new nick "Fei Mui" ( cantonese ) and said i looked like the cantonese drama 肥田喜事 main actress...!!! =.="""""

Lucas said,"you really look abit more Bak Bak...".I said "har? i really get fat arr??" den he said "No lah....previosly ur figure is like 林心如，Now....hmmmmm.....look like 钟丽缇 ." hahaha.... Thanks Lucas for ur beautiful Lie.....I didn't mad....Don't worry.. =)

Only my 大姨 didn't said i was fat...she said," I thk u look OK , good figure...Not fat arr... maybe my daughter also get bigger size and bigger size, So i don't thk u are fat.. " lolx...!!! Guess after WY read this ,surely killing me.... or her mother ?? lolx...... Don't worry WY, you are charm and sharp....really... I love ur words ---

WE ARE THE SINGLE GIRLS WHO ROCK !!!!!

Thanks to my mama, comfort me whn i almost gave up my dream.....
"DON'T GIVE URSELF EXCUSES IN GIVING UP/TO BE LAZY
DON'T GIVE URSELF EXCUSES TO HINDER UR DREAM
ULTILISE THE TIME OF COMPLAINING TO FILL UP THE CHIP"

Thanks to my papa always pamper me like my boyfriend whn i was down.... ( mama , don't jealous ya ....lolx...)

I LOVE YOU BOTH PAPA AND MAMA..... FOREVER !!!!! =D XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Study Life = BorinG Life

*Sigh Sigh Sigh*

Exam just around the corner... ( 2 weeks time )

Yet ,I'm still busy Facebook-ing and Blogging...

Worse still, hafta study during Birthday...

I'm against the creek now...

My friendss, May i know wat's ur definition of lack of sleep? Anyone ??

How many hrs of sleep per day considered as sleep deprivation?

I wonder....

很想念 你为我泡的Ice Blended Cappuccino

很想念 你为我煮的Tom Yam Maggie面+一粒半生熟的鸡蛋

虽然没有像 Starbucks 的咖啡那么高级

虽然只是一包RM1.20的快熟面

但对我来说

这就是简单的幸福

你的讯息及来电

随着光阴的流逝 越来越少了

我听着 Secondhand Serenade 的 "Fall for You"

"Because 2nite will be the night that i will fall for you...Over again..."

安静地 悄悄地 想念着你

不敢让你知道

What The Fortune Teller Said...Believe It or Not?

Give you some snippet of my volcano experience 1st...( Will give a full post of the volcano hiking , soon~ ) We started our climbing at 2am,reached at 4.30am.It started to dawn around 6am,but too bad, able to see a Vague Sunrise ONLY due to the Heavy Fog...

Around 8am, on top of the volcano had my slumber. ( Whose the one stalking me huh? )

Awoke frm the sleep, saw a white lady was asking abt her love life...Triggered me to give myself a shot too.

The Fortune Teller migrated to Bali frm Australia. Named Vijaya ( I thk, barely remember his name, sorries...)

Haha....MY TURN MY TURN... listened attentively...!!!
1stly, he asked me what I wanna know. After i told him my predicament, he gave me a card and asked me to shuffle. Then, picked out 3 cards and placed it on the mat.

Yupe, tat's it ! The card i got.

• The problem "Find the blessing in ur current situation" - The world have dark and light. You cannot always stay in the light and never gone through the dark and thus, you won't appreciate the light. Once you fall into the hiatus of darkness,don't nervous,it won't last long but help you to be a better one. You will meet the soulmate of ur life after you let go the past. If u not put a fullstop at ur past,how u get a new one in your life?"

• The solution "Artistic Expression" - You are born to Be Artistic , Creative and Inspirative , u can try out painting, dancing, music ,cooking, swimming, gardening...etc etc....After u had accomplished, You will like a magnet and attract the people around you...Be confidence of urself, and remember just be urself, don't care how other ppl look at you / talking behind you... you are good enough to be urself. You don't need to mold urself to become another person just to make someone else happy... Live for urself.

• The Result "Mother,wife,sister,daughter" - Somehow u can try to confide with girls and thy will bring you out of the predicament. ( actually i not really uds wat he explained abt"the results" )
  

Look !!! I conquered the Volcano...!!!! ( BiG Applause , pls~~~~ =P )

You believe wat he said ?? I thk he more on giving me advice instead of vaticinating my future. I would be more interested if he could foretell my future, wondering what he would said. Superstitious? Human always choose to believe ( at least 50% of it ) although thy clearly knew that this might not accurate at all. lolx... Me?? yupe... i choose "half half" lah.....rofl.

Frankly speaking, all the sermons and advices that he said,i hv known in old ages time... ( Oopss, too exaggerating.. My girls had told me"N times"since 2yrs ago ) Just I hardly take the 1st step ahead and jump over the hurdle. The past of sweet memories always haunting me,vividly, engraved in my brain. Anyway, Thanks to the fortune teller. =)

I wanna say...I really,truely,sincerely feel blessed and appreciate what i hv bestowed.
I have The Almighty God with me
I have my Great and Loving Parents
I have alot of friends care and concern me
I have a great future and a noble job awaiting me
I have a healthy body,clear mind and my family are healthy too
Everything is Excellent ! I should be happy !
Love life - doesn't mean anything
God will give me the best !
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当天晚上大约12am 等待2am的爬山 . 无聊 .
一时兴起.所以与朋友以扑克牌算你我之间的缘分
结果竟是
你和我之间的扑克牌中间隔着重重的障碍,
一开始就隔了万重山般的, 要跨越真的很难...
经过几番努力,终于距离越来越靠近了. 但半途又被拉开
到最后,我们的距离终于靠近了,但中间还时隔了几张扑克牌
反映着现实般
我们的距离. 亦似靠近 , 亦似遥远
以为靠近了, 却恻然发现竟是遥远的
以为快要变成陌生人了,你紧紧一抱,我们又好像靠近了

*sigh*

Bloggie? Why?

Why u wanna have ur own blog?? What's the purpose ??
There's plenty of reason...

• Sharing their life experience and what they have encountered
• When there's none to be your audience, you can try to vent out your feeling through the blog...
• Shout out the frustration in ur study or working against the wall of despair
• Cry in the blog when u crushed by an unrequited love or when u're havin a trouble in ur love life
  
• Sharpen and strengthen your language and vocabulary
• Simply want to make use of the free time
• Echo the views of others
• Keep in touch with friends by knowing more about their life oversea or friend who may not meet that often
• Earning popularity and money through blog
  

How about me? Well, some of the points above is my reason.I would be thrilled whn I get to know that my friends appreciate my blog. "Hey Aeris, you miss your dad's cooking? / you still homesick? Are you ok now?" Last semester one of my classmates ( not really close with him before ) asked me in a sudden. And I was shocked, how he get to know ? "Oh...frm your blog..." I'm so glad and appreciate those friends who i'hv not expected thm to view my blog. Heart-felt gratitude to my dear friends =)

Last night, I chat with a friend in msn and told me that "blog is not important to me, because no much people viewing my blog...donno what's the point i'm writing blog.."

And I answered,

"Writing blog is not the matter of how much u can hit in the popularity or number of counters. In my perspective, Blog is a good tool for us to keep in touch and know more about each other. Blog is just like a diary where life's story is parading... For me, I don't mind how many people will read my blog,as long as the friends that i care reading my blog ,I would be hyped-up and touched ! Because i knew that those friends are concerning me."

An artist said those words before,"I'll still continue composing songs and release album in any means even if I left only ONE supporter." Yupe, that's true. Even i left only 1 friend who will read my blog, i'll still continue writing blog because i know he/she still care about me.

Another reason i have a blog is to share my medical life and lesson in life with my friends and those who care about me.Also, I just like to write ..!! ( although i hv not much free time to waste...lol, I should study write now... but what am I doing ??? writing blog...>.<""" lazy pig again!!! ) From my observation and also been told by senior doctors, "as your age of profession increasing , your Skill and experience, Undoubtedly, will increase too, BUT for most people, their ethics and proffesional standard are DECREASING....!!!"

Some of thm used to advocate,"I wanna save people...I wanna help people..that's why I want to be a doctor." Yes, tat's my reason Too, to be a doctor.
But those who USED TO advocate to be very noble , End up..... thy hv forgotten their primitive purpose of being a doctor. Not pointed to anyone, but human tend to go astray especially when thy lost thmself as thy pushed and shoved to get in the line of RICH strata. The hideous devil of Greed blinded their eyes and poluted their hearts. I saw few cases in the private hospital... and it's pretty upset to see these happened...

So, through writing the blog, I wanna keep reminding myself and all my dear friends ------>>

• Be the Light-Bearer when accustomed to the dark and evil ways of this world.

• Be deaf when someone or some matter trying to bring you and me toward an illicit affair. Never Ever get LOST !!!

Bitter Yet Meaningful

Bitter ---- Harsh environment, Cold and Humid Weather, my experience which stated in the previous blog ( rise & shine ) etc....

Meaningful ---- Experience, Understand & Care about the poor and the neglected ones...

Due to the time constraint, ( gotta catch up my study which hv'been lack a lot & the hectic life in hospital ) so i just able to give a short post today.... Wanna share with you about my "Kampung" life...

photo taking under the hot sun.... *curi tulang-ing* ( I supposed stay at the hall there )

I feel very awkward each time looking at myself like very "pro" in handling with the patient. Indeed, I still not competence yet ( kinda stress u know... it's been 4th yr medical student but still blur-ing....sigh )

( Thanks Ling Ling help me in the snap-shot...hehe...)

After the social work, Break time...!!! hooo~~~~
Grabbing the chance taking photo with the monument !!! hehe

My batch... "cyclodextrine "!!!!

Evening time, just bumming around the village....
and
Self-Admiring photo session ...!!!! lolx

Wearing the coat for the "education and information session" ...how izzit? Charisma??? lolxx
( oopssss...I self-admired again !!! *blushing* )

My spectacle look !!! Miss it??? Guess some of you it's been a long long time nvr see me wearing spectacle dee... hehe

- End -

I just left 5months time to be a "Junior Doctor"
But all my basic has been forgotten...
Amnesia Amnesia - Pls Get Away from me pls..!!!
Lazy PiG - Pls Get Away too.!!!!
Cast down - Commanding u to Get out of my life !

祸害

爱上我 对你来说 竟然是一种祸害

我有这样差吗？

你后悔了吗？

*hurt*

心痛

也许是我的错

也许是我逼你

只是没想到 你还是会把我想成那样 真的让我很心痛

只是没想到 你竟然会对我说出那番话 你真的是如此想吗？

虽然你只说“如果”，但也是狠狠地在我身上刺了一刀。。。

想起不久的从前，我们是好好地

我们的一切，难道真的是要一句话就否定了一切？

你无法想象，我是有多么的心痛。。。

Rise & Shine - A Message for YOU

This is quite a long post I knw... Hopefully not too tedious for you..but is indeed meaningful for me and readers.My dear friends could you pls read till the end of this post if possible =P.. THanks for supporting !!! Hehe...

It was the last night of the Social Work / KerSosKes ( Kerja Social Kesehatan ) at the rural areas. The weather was getting colder as the night grew darker. Also, due to the rain literally mounts the coldness of the night. The heavy fog encompassed everyone and it's just 3meters sight I could barely seen.

From the previous night experience I had, I din't expect to have a good shelter for my slumber. I would be satisfied if I could just sleep at the usual places that I did as the previous night ( which been a Not-So-Good condition, but Not the worst,at least! ) Some of the local coursemates seemed pleasant and friendly in the light of day, but as bedtime approaching, they just simply moved away your sleeping bag, Leaving you to sleep at a foul and humid places WITHOUT any consideration. I tried to talk with her, with NO success. She just pointed other places and said,"Oh yeah, you can just sleep there" But I knew the places she meant was other coursemates places. I'm NOT that BRAINLESS !!!! I wouldn't just "steal " people places to sleep. So, I just gave up in nego with that low-rent girl, carrying my sleeping bag and leaved the room.

I stood outside the room, sinewless. My mind in trance state, nowhere to go. Trying to call up my friends, nevertheless all gone to sleep. I stared blankly at the sky, raindrops fell upon my shoulder, heavy mist impeded my view, felt the strong wind and cold air were blasting over me. Memories of my papa & mama,holidays,those fugitive hours when i was pampered,cuddled in arms REMINISCED, FLOODING my mind and the tears of Self-pity lingering around my eyes. I was striving hard not to let it fall, made it into "intra-orbital" tears... I JUST FELT SO LOST !

A voice broke the silent of the night,"Aeris, what u doing there?" Adrian appeared to me. I told him everything and with the soft & tender tone,he spoke,"I talked to them for you." I stoped him immediately because I didn't want to make any scene. "You just leave me alone,I'll find places for myself to sleep," I answered. He said,"You should tell me earlier and I'll definitely help you because XXXXXXXXX ( I couldn't mention here ) ,right?" I was so touched by his words, this is what we called True friends meant to be. He went to find a girl ( Jovita ) to keep me in companion and he lent me his mat to put on the dirty & humid non-tiles floor. And Now, I had a mat to put on that foul places, at least. He then retreated to guy's camp. Jovita helped me to clear off the wet,puking,full-of-footstep newspapers with the torchlight in her grasp and unfolding the mat for me. Jovita was such a kind & caring girl, she sat beside me ,wait and make sure that I was cuddled in my sleeping bag although I told her many times that I'm OK.

The next morning, I was tired and angry.But I was uncertain about the object of my anger.I hadn't even seen the face of those girls who had offended me because the room was out of electrical supply last night.

Today, as I read "our journey", the testimony of the author is almost similar to what I experienced.I caught in surprise ! Through this incidence, I learned something : The trip seemed to be a disaster,but God used that foiled KersosKes to show me a scriptural truth "we do not wrestle against flesh & blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms"(Ephesians 6:12). It would'hv been futile for me to show anger/bitterness to those who had caused us to lose sleep. Their behavior had been prompted by the evil one who had spiritually darkened their hearts and eyes.So, instead of asking why they behaved so brainless/wrongly, my Q became : How am I reflecting God's light to them?

Me & JoJo ( Our 1st shot ever ! So happy..!!! Some of my friends said we looked alike, are we?? nvm, it's my pleasure to look alike with u because you are leng lui...LoLx )

I hate my infirmity in dealing many expects of my life. Still striving hard to be BOLD in resisting all sorts of evil and hurdles. Inner-strenth building up still in progess >>>>......

Thanks so much to A & J, maybe you won't get to know this post but I will always remember your helping hand in my heart FOREVER.

Let's rise, permit the rays of Goodness shine in every nook of our lives & may we courageously reflect that light to the lost world