祝您父亲节快乐

小时候，总是喜欢和父母亲斗嘴，从来都没有顾虑到他们的感受。。。
犹记得，有一次还被鞭打得蛮严重地，一条条，细细地伤口清晰可见，
但是不服输又倔强的我还是忍住泪水。。。不哭就是不哭。。。
转眼间，爸爸的手上竟然拿着一瓶黄药水，心疼的眼泪在眼中打滚 ，哽咽地说道：“都跟你说不要整天跟父母亲顶嘴了，你还是不听。。。你看，看到你这样难道爸爸不会心疼吗？” 此话一说，我的眼泪即刻破堤而出。。。
我哭，不是因为皮肉上的痛而是看见爸爸心痛的眼泪而哭。。。
从那一次起，我就告诉自己不可以再让自己的父母亲为我而哭。

爸爸， 我疼爱的爸爸，
每次一定会把最好的留给我。。。
明明自己也很喜欢吃的东西，但只要孩子和老婆喜欢，就会立刻双手拱让。。。
爸爸， 总是负责吃孩子留下的渣滓，
他总是清茶淡饭，孩子却山珍海味
节省自己，把全部的 都花在孩子身上

中学时， 爸爸的颈项肿了起来需要动手术，
我人生中第一次无比的担忧，我不能失去爸爸
眼泪不停地流，彻夜辗转难眠，那时候的我以为是肿瘤
我感谢上帝，原来是 Goiter ( Hyperthyroidism : Grave's Disease )
我们全家人才放下心头大石。。。
（记载： 记得那时候在医院，看见很多病人在病床上,有些痛苦地伸吟着，有些痛苦得在床上翻来覆去挣扎着，那时侯的我真的觉得医院是一个很恐怖的地方，看着那些病人那么痛苦，心里真的很不舒服，想帮他们却又力不从心,只能眼睁睁地看着他们痛苦着。。。希望不久的未来，我真的能做到我所希望的）

虽然爸爸不是什么大老板，也不是社会名人
爸爸没有大屋，也没有名车
但却是人人眼中的好好先生。。。
我很骄傲因为我有一个那么好的爸爸

已经第三年了，
每逢母亲节，父亲节都无法跟他们庆祝。。。真的有点失落
爸爸妈妈，没有我在你们身边， 你们一定要好好照顾自己的健康

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游子的心声有谁能了解？
皎洁的月亮，
一个人的我在房间里Blogging，
心里的空虚，又有谁来安慰？

我只想说， 只有爸爸妈妈永永远远会为了你流下来的眼泪而感到心疼心痛
所以别随随便便再流泪了。。。因为爸爸妈妈真的会心痛
学习努力不再哭泣 因为我会为了爸爸妈妈的心痛而心痛。。。

人们都说爸爸就是女儿上辈子的情人。。。
空窗期了很久， 看见身边的朋友一个个的结婚生子，
总觉得这些幸福好像不会在我人生中发生。。。
幸福------ 它好像离我越来越远了。。。
我没事，毋担心，就让一切随缘吧。。。

今天与爸爸通电话， 我跟爸爸说:"如果以后我嫁不出,那怎么办?"
爸爸打趣说:"那不用紧啊...爸爸陪你一辈子..."
爸爸,你一定要长命百岁哦..... 等着你陪我一辈子...... 呵呵..... =P

My Nike Watch

03.03.06 , Gurney Plaza Nike Shop

.... The New Watch.... I'm so Happy ...

幸福的感觉溢满了我心头

13.06.09 , BaliGarden HoteL

It was jz happened suddenly whn i was swimming over there... I donno why... so So Unacceptable and ridiculous ! How can it be jz broken like that ???!!!!

bcoz of chlorine ? or juz bcoz it has been quite sometime i din't wear it and cause the rubber not tat elastic nemore ? or is jz time to say goodbye ?

If u asked me the Intensity of Heartaches.. I would said "Hurts a whole lot" wic is severe pain. Who can tell me... can it be repaired ??? If the nike shop charged me 100bucks for repairing... would u repair ??? But i still like tis watch so so much !!!!! oh GOsh !!! I love the design of tis watch and the meaning underlying it..... but now..... GONE ~

Guyz...gimme some opinion... I still like tis watch alotzzzzzz

14.06.09 , In my room Bali

I borrowed a synthetic adhesive Glue frm my friend and tried to fix it.. Obviously, it's impossible to jz fix it like tat..It's ugly i knew.. Juz STUPIDLY trying to make myself feel better.. ( laugh upon my stupidity )

It's just synonism with an interpersonal relationship ( no matter friendship or affection ), once rupture a friendship/marriage... it's very difficult to fix it bec and tend it well. Even it looked connected with the yellow glue... but still the scar is there, engraving on it and the bonding is jz too fragile to be broken again..

It's brutal for me to accept the truth.

Is there anyone who can tell me tis is not true ? Is there anyone who can tell me it can be fixed no matter how hideous the scar was ? Is there anyone who can tell me my perception, my point of view is absolutely WRONG ? It's just my pessimistic thinkin ? I hope it is....

I placed it bec to the box and it's looked like the NEW one.. Rite ? From the outward appearance, It's still nice and good bcuz it's jz superficial/surface... but whn u looked deeply and clearly into it, the cicatrix will disclosed/revealed in front of ur eyes vividly...

Frm now on, my Beloved Nike watch will be an adornment in my room FOREVER ....

原来在我身边的... ...

。。。保存期限 。。。

只有那么的... ...三年

风信子的故事 The Hyacinths

如果要让枯萎的风信子再开花

一定要把外面的生长物通通剪掉

这个道理很简单

就像励志书籍 不是有说过吗

“啊 愚蠢的人们 啊

为何总是对过去念念不忘　？

把已死的花朵留在身边

即对过去无法割舍

又没有办法迈向未来”

你说是不是很有道理呢　？

Grape Hyacinths

The Blue Hyacinths

－－败犬女王－－

出路

不知不觉
有阵寒风吹过我心头
那阵寒风一直围绕着我 让我不能自己
一个愚蠢的想法 ，如果这世界 有时光机 该多好 ？
我想 回到从前的时光 。。那不会让我觉得心寒的时光

回归现实
无法回到过去
只能 默默地 哀求
明天一定会比今天 更好

我只想
找个出路
一个美好的出路
一个逃离现实的出路
一个只有快乐没有悲伤的出路
一个不会让我觉得心灰,心酸,心寒的出路

面对未来
有太多的 不肯定
所以 我选择了 不听 不看 不想

因为

"DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW,
FOR TOMORROW WILL WORRY ABOUT ITSELF
EACH DAY HAS ENOUGH TROUBLE OF ITS OWN..."

Don't worry, I'll Stay CHeeRssss.. =)

The Rising Great Star - Susan Boyle

Nowadays, who doesn't know Susan Boyle?? Everyone is talking about her.. The WORLD KNOWS HER....!!!! An undisputable truth that she really opened our eyes that great talents are not only hidden in good looks.... There is always HOPE in life awaiting for you....and never ever judge a person by its cover...!

Susan Boyle - who suffered frm Learning disability, with her courageous in participating in Britain Got Talent Season 3 has been stirred up the hope of life in every corner of the world ! No doubt that after her first performance at the audition, she has won everyone’s heart. “I Dreamed a Dream” by Les Miserables is the song she sang..Everyone eyes is brimming with the tears of touch.

Learning disability is an “invisible” disability. People don’t understand it because they can’t see it. It is caused by the way the brain develops, and in Susan Boyle’s case was due to deprivation of oxygen at birth. A people suffered frm learning disability does not mean that he/she has mental health problems or dyslexia but it's harder for thm to communicate and learn new things.

What can i said is she really inspired me not to be giving up easily... although life is full of trials, hurdles and uphill battles tat u gotta pass through... You may Rest BUT never Quit !!!! Grateful to God that gave you those trials and mold you to be a better person... and you will find out your capability is surprisingly beyond your expectation because God has His plan in everyone's life...

In the midst of a crooked & depraved generation,
in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life

A Step Closer to The END

After the whole 3 months of hectic life, finally we hv gone thru Musculoskeletal and Neuroscience Block..

NOW,at tis moment, is the TIME OF REST...... physically and mentally as well...
No coffee-overdose,
No tea-overdose,
No outside food,
No salt and MSG overdose,
No somnolence nemore,
No fatigue nemore,
No pimples nemore....haha.......( Hope so )

After the dreaded exam, Thank God that my condition is NOT as bad as wat i thought b4...I thk i can cope stress better den laz time ( at least i won't gone "ki siao" as wat i previously tot i would..haha...) So, remember guyz...you are alwaz tougher then u think... tat's indeed True.. whn the time comes, you will know how to cope it...

The new block coming ---->> Behavior disorders ( Psychiatric ) . Should be a very interesting topic...!!! After tis...another practical exam waiting for me....Aftertat...i CAN GO HOME !!!! Juz left approximately 1.5 month !!!! My sweet sweet HOME.....I'm coming back I'm coming bac...hooray !!!! I miss home so so much...i miss my family and friends....I miss THE FOOD especially...!!

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在这过去的一个月，发现自己爱上了。。。。 蓝天以及白云

我也开始喜欢蓝色系的东西。。。

每当读书读到很累，或觉得脑袋快要塞满时。。都会伸手打开窗帘，房间的玻璃窗好大，当我掀开窗帘，眼前出现的。。就是一朵又一朵的白云，偶尔会看到鸟儿飞过。。让我的心里头有股莫名的平静。。

偶尔，也会有人放风筝。。但这里的风筝都不是很美丽（竟然是乌鸦的造型 ！！黑黑的。。像个巨乌鸦在空中飞翔。。。真是煞风景 >.<"" ）

在这过去的几个月，真的发生了很多事。。。

有欢笑，也有泪水，

有矛盾，也有执著的时候

有难熬，也有轻松的时候

我要说的是。。。谢谢你们，

每当我需要你们的时候，尽管你们如此的忙，如此的赶不完所需温习的功课，如此的疲惫，你们都会放下手头上的书，而很有耐性地听我倾诉那无尽头的烦恼，我的心声。。聆听我心中的哭泣。。真的很感激你们，如果不是你们，我真的不知道在这岛屿上要怎么撑下去？

现在的我看似OK... 但我还能撑得住几次的循环呢？可笑的是，我竟然不感到疲惫。。。

读书的压力，我撑得住

友情上地不协调，我撑得住

家里的思念，我撑得住

孤独的侵袭，我撑得住

生活上的压力，我撑得住

但为何就是这个我撑不住？？？ 真的很讨厌我自己。。。

我一直都很努力的要成为 a better person..

我自认，在每一方面。。。我都在进步着。。。

但就是这个，每次都以为自己已经进步了，但却又很轻易地被打回原型。。。

你们又能在我身边多久呢？ 我很清楚地知道，我不能每次都依靠你们。。。

谢谢你们，你们借给我的时间，我无法偿还。。。也没能力偿还。。。

我感谢老天爷，至少在这孤独的岛屿上，我并不孤单。。。

只是有时候，还是会因为找不回以前那种感觉而感到叹息。。。

大家的心质都变了。。。

我庆幸，虽然我们不像小时候般的单纯，

但我相信我们的友谊是比在这个社会上很多人来得真，来得实

我希望，现在是这样，

以后出来社会工作的我们，还是会这样。。。

人们都说，当一个人越长大，身边真正的朋友相继就会越来越少，

我知道这是个无法辨驳的事实，

也许你们读着我Blog的人，会觉得我很天真，但我真地真心渴望这不会发生在我身上。

过去实在太多的遗憾，我没能力挽救遗憾及懊悔，

我能做的只是---努力不再让遗憾发生。。。。。

就好像我在课业上所学到的，无论是任何疾病--- "Prevention is always better then Cure"

所以，我很珍惜现在所拥有的一切。。。

包括亲情，友情，爱情，以及我现在所拥有的,不管是物质上，或是虚幻的。。。一切一切。。。都很珍惜。。。

24hrs prior the Exam [ Part2 ]

10.30pm : Finally the electricity "resurrect" !!

Thank God for it... Yet..my study plan dragged d... Guess i'm goin to hv a sleepless night AGAIN...



[ Is the candle looked like lotus flower ????? ]




Another picture.....

GUESSss !!!! What's that ?

Is that looked like an ice sculpture ??



No....It's NOT ...!!!




Is the remnants of CANDLESsSsss........lolx

Thank God tat finally i still can cope thru tis exam and i hv 2.5hrs sleep at least.... ( better den sleepless nite,rite? ) =D

24hrs prior the Exam [ Part 1 ]

6.30pm : Suddenly don't hv electrical supply while i still have a lotz of pending topics "parading" on the floor and waiting me to study thm...


They said something wrong in Java ( the main electricity supplier to Bali ).. so most probably will take quite some time to fix it..oh GOSH !!!


Worries pile up... Sky is almost covered by the blanket... and I don't have any torchlight nor candles with me.. tourchlight, i used to hv but is spoiled. >_<""

7.30pm : it's been no electrical supply for about 1hrs...with the 2 candle lights... studying under the dark shadow...my eyes getting blur and blurrr.... It's really kinda hard studying with jz 2 candles...1st time experience ! No electrical supply the day b4 exam... What's a pity !

[ P/s : Thanks Sarash for the candles, helping a 23 y.o. kiddo who dare not to use matches to light up the candle.. =P ]