热忱 - 你在哪里？

离开这城市 想找个解放
一路开往 那无际的海洋
孤单的想像 寂寞的逃亡

偶尔 会难免沮丧
想离开 想躲起来
心里的期待 总是填不满

我还能找回三年前的热忱吗?
我 默默地祈祷着
你已经离开了
只留下这份热忱 陪伴着我

热忱 你到底在哪里？
为何不出现在我的世界?
我一直 寻寻觅觅着
却只换来泪水及疲惫

热忱 你是否累了? 你消失了吗 ?
为何我感受不到你的余温?
如何才能把你驻进我心里?
我的疲惫 等待着你的安慰
却只看见你已朝向他狂奔

为何要把自己的生命
搞得如此地狼狈
一波接着一波的海浪
冲打在我的身上 何时才能停止?

关于未来 只有自己明白
不想让心情 被现实打败
疲惫的身躯 只想好好的休息
放开所有的包袱
让我的忧愁 随着海风漂走
用海风抚慰那 一碰就碎 的心灵

让自己平静 给自己力量
才发现关于梦的答案 一直在自己手上
只有自己能 让自己发光 =)

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我不管,我只要

回家

回家

回家

I MISS HOME BADLY ......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

只有家
才是我的栖息之地
医治我心灵上的疲惫
放下一切束缚 做会自己 享受被溺爱的感觉

谢谢你 爸爸妈妈
纵然我多么的顽皮 你们的不离不弃
永远是我最好的依靠

Pleasure Principle

2 days ago, i received an email frm a friend....is about "wat your DOB tells you ?" So...Tat's a few words about my birthday No. --->> 6

Number 6

1. Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don't care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person..
   
2. You will be very good in either education or work wise! (I think tis is wat other ppl thk of me.... YEs ! )
   
3. You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives.
4. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.
5. most of you will get marry/engaged early. ( oh...really? Don't thk so... )
   
6. You are a caring person towards your family & friends . ( In the process of Learning still..)
   
7. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further... ( I like tis snip a whole lots ....)

Usually Gals always like to do psychological test although thy know it might not true...Homo sapiens is weird, always striving hard to deceit urself upon something which won't happen in the true world... Indulging in the fantasy of Fake Happiness... mayb i'm talkin abt---> MYSELF , the weird Homo sapiens... lolx...Fervently hoping the above sentences could happen in my life...Living Ardently..

Once my friend asked me,"do you abide by any principles tat guide the route of your life?" This question is just hit the nail on my head... I answered,"nvr thought of tis matter b4"..I feel ashamed of myself in a sudden, 22yrs++ life without principles...how can it be? It's gnawing me... After a deep thought, i thk my principle so far is --------->> PLEASURE PRINCIPLE

Accoring to Sigmund Freud, The Structural Theory of Mind (Id,Ego,SuperEgo):

• Id refers to a reservoir of unorganized instinctual drives. Operating under the domination of the primary process, lacking the capacity to delay or modify the instinctual drives with which an infant is born. Which all these amount to PLEASURE PRINCIPLE

• Ego - The executive organ of psyche, controls motility,perception,contact with reality, through defence mechanism available to it,the delay and modulation of drive expression. He believed that, Id is modified as a result of the impact of external world on the drives, wic simultateously substitutes the REALITY PRINCIPLE for the pleasure principle

• Superego establishes and maintains an individual's moral conscience on the basis of a complex system of ideals and values internalized

You are right...I'm just too immature in handling every expect in my life..alwaz work according to my instinct without a second thought.

When fear crept into my heart, my faith began to shaken and weaken...my faith was put in the test many times... but i still don't have any improvement though...Allow me to make the final dopey decision... after this, I will abandon the pleasure principle and adopt the reality principle...Please trust me for the 1 last time... ok??? I know you are worrying..but Please don't feel disappointed on me...Maybe it will hurt myself but I just want my life to be No remorse..at least i hv tried my best... agree?? ( guess i'm gonna get scolded again... lolx )

In short, i just wanna be HAPPY like the above picture ---
the cute baby,my son....hehe....

Hey my friends.... 你会挺我的，对吧 ？ 一定要哦 ！！！
谢谢你们一直的支持与关心。。真的
Love you all...... muaksss...........xxxxxxxxxx