Bloggie? Why?

Why u wanna have ur own blog?? What's the purpose ??
There's plenty of reason...

• Sharing their life experience and what they have encountered
• When there's none to be your audience, you can try to vent out your feeling through the blog...
• Shout out the frustration in ur study or working against the wall of despair
• Cry in the blog when u crushed by an unrequited love or when u're havin a trouble in ur love life
  
• Sharpen and strengthen your language and vocabulary
• Simply want to make use of the free time
• Echo the views of others
• Keep in touch with friends by knowing more about their life oversea or friend who may not meet that often
• Earning popularity and money through blog
  

How about me? Well, some of the points above is my reason.I would be thrilled whn I get to know that my friends appreciate my blog. "Hey Aeris, you miss your dad's cooking? / you still homesick? Are you ok now?" Last semester one of my classmates ( not really close with him before ) asked me in a sudden. And I was shocked, how he get to know ? "Oh...frm your blog..." I'm so glad and appreciate those friends who i'hv not expected thm to view my blog. Heart-felt gratitude to my dear friends =)

Last night, I chat with a friend in msn and told me that "blog is not important to me, because no much people viewing my blog...donno what's the point i'm writing blog.."

And I answered,

"Writing blog is not the matter of how much u can hit in the popularity or number of counters. In my perspective, Blog is a good tool for us to keep in touch and know more about each other. Blog is just like a diary where life's story is parading... For me, I don't mind how many people will read my blog,as long as the friends that i care reading my blog ,I would be hyped-up and touched ! Because i knew that those friends are concerning me."

An artist said those words before,"I'll still continue composing songs and release album in any means even if I left only ONE supporter." Yupe, that's true. Even i left only 1 friend who will read my blog, i'll still continue writing blog because i know he/she still care about me.

Another reason i have a blog is to share my medical life and lesson in life with my friends and those who care about me.Also, I just like to write ..!! ( although i hv not much free time to waste...lol, I should study write now... but what am I doing ??? writing blog...>.<""" lazy pig again!!! ) From my observation and also been told by senior doctors, "as your age of profession increasing , your Skill and experience, Undoubtedly, will increase too, BUT for most people, their ethics and proffesional standard are DECREASING....!!!"

Some of thm used to advocate,"I wanna save people...I wanna help people..that's why I want to be a doctor." Yes, tat's my reason Too, to be a doctor.
But those who USED TO advocate to be very noble , End up..... thy hv forgotten their primitive purpose of being a doctor. Not pointed to anyone, but human tend to go astray especially when thy lost thmself as thy pushed and shoved to get in the line of RICH strata. The hideous devil of Greed blinded their eyes and poluted their hearts. I saw few cases in the private hospital... and it's pretty upset to see these happened...

So, through writing the blog, I wanna keep reminding myself and all my dear friends ------>>

• Be the Light-Bearer when accustomed to the dark and evil ways of this world.

• Be deaf when someone or some matter trying to bring you and me toward an illicit affair. Never Ever get LOST !!!

Bitter Yet Meaningful

Bitter ---- Harsh environment, Cold and Humid Weather, my experience which stated in the previous blog ( rise & shine ) etc....

Meaningful ---- Experience, Understand & Care about the poor and the neglected ones...

Due to the time constraint, ( gotta catch up my study which hv'been lack a lot & the hectic life in hospital ) so i just able to give a short post today.... Wanna share with you about my "Kampung" life...

photo taking under the hot sun.... *curi tulang-ing* ( I supposed stay at the hall there )

I feel very awkward each time looking at myself like very "pro" in handling with the patient. Indeed, I still not competence yet ( kinda stress u know... it's been 4th yr medical student but still blur-ing....sigh )

( Thanks Ling Ling help me in the snap-shot...hehe...)

After the social work, Break time...!!! hooo~~~~
Grabbing the chance taking photo with the monument !!! hehe

My batch... "cyclodextrine "!!!!

Evening time, just bumming around the village....
and
Self-Admiring photo session ...!!!! lolx

Wearing the coat for the "education and information session" ...how izzit? Charisma??? lolxx
( oopssss...I self-admired again !!! *blushing* )

My spectacle look !!! Miss it??? Guess some of you it's been a long long time nvr see me wearing spectacle dee... hehe

- End -

I just left 5months time to be a "Junior Doctor"
But all my basic has been forgotten...
Amnesia Amnesia - Pls Get Away from me pls..!!!
Lazy PiG - Pls Get Away too.!!!!
Cast down - Commanding u to Get out of my life !

祸害

爱上我 对你来说 竟然是一种祸害

我有这样差吗？

你后悔了吗？

*hurt*

心痛

也许是我的错

也许是我逼你

只是没想到 你还是会把我想成那样 真的让我很心痛

只是没想到 你竟然会对我说出那番话 你真的是如此想吗？

虽然你只说“如果”，但也是狠狠地在我身上刺了一刀。。。

想起不久的从前，我们是好好地

我们的一切，难道真的是要一句话就否定了一切？

你无法想象，我是有多么的心痛。。。

Rise & Shine - A Message for YOU

This is quite a long post I knw... Hopefully not too tedious for you..but is indeed meaningful for me and readers.My dear friends could you pls read till the end of this post if possible =P.. THanks for supporting !!! Hehe...

It was the last night of the Social Work / KerSosKes ( Kerja Social Kesehatan ) at the rural areas. The weather was getting colder as the night grew darker. Also, due to the rain literally mounts the coldness of the night. The heavy fog encompassed everyone and it's just 3meters sight I could barely seen.

From the previous night experience I had, I din't expect to have a good shelter for my slumber. I would be satisfied if I could just sleep at the usual places that I did as the previous night ( which been a Not-So-Good condition, but Not the worst,at least! ) Some of the local coursemates seemed pleasant and friendly in the light of day, but as bedtime approaching, they just simply moved away your sleeping bag, Leaving you to sleep at a foul and humid places WITHOUT any consideration. I tried to talk with her, with NO success. She just pointed other places and said,"Oh yeah, you can just sleep there" But I knew the places she meant was other coursemates places. I'm NOT that BRAINLESS !!!! I wouldn't just "steal " people places to sleep. So, I just gave up in nego with that low-rent girl, carrying my sleeping bag and leaved the room.

I stood outside the room, sinewless. My mind in trance state, nowhere to go. Trying to call up my friends, nevertheless all gone to sleep. I stared blankly at the sky, raindrops fell upon my shoulder, heavy mist impeded my view, felt the strong wind and cold air were blasting over me. Memories of my papa & mama,holidays,those fugitive hours when i was pampered,cuddled in arms REMINISCED, FLOODING my mind and the tears of Self-pity lingering around my eyes. I was striving hard not to let it fall, made it into "intra-orbital" tears... I JUST FELT SO LOST !

A voice broke the silent of the night,"Aeris, what u doing there?" Adrian appeared to me. I told him everything and with the soft & tender tone,he spoke,"I talked to them for you." I stoped him immediately because I didn't want to make any scene. "You just leave me alone,I'll find places for myself to sleep," I answered. He said,"You should tell me earlier and I'll definitely help you because XXXXXXXXX ( I couldn't mention here ) ,right?" I was so touched by his words, this is what we called True friends meant to be. He went to find a girl ( Jovita ) to keep me in companion and he lent me his mat to put on the dirty & humid non-tiles floor. And Now, I had a mat to put on that foul places, at least. He then retreated to guy's camp. Jovita helped me to clear off the wet,puking,full-of-footstep newspapers with the torchlight in her grasp and unfolding the mat for me. Jovita was such a kind & caring girl, she sat beside me ,wait and make sure that I was cuddled in my sleeping bag although I told her many times that I'm OK.

The next morning, I was tired and angry.But I was uncertain about the object of my anger.I hadn't even seen the face of those girls who had offended me because the room was out of electrical supply last night.

Today, as I read "our journey", the testimony of the author is almost similar to what I experienced.I caught in surprise ! Through this incidence, I learned something : The trip seemed to be a disaster,but God used that foiled KersosKes to show me a scriptural truth "we do not wrestle against flesh & blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms"(Ephesians 6:12). It would'hv been futile for me to show anger/bitterness to those who had caused us to lose sleep. Their behavior had been prompted by the evil one who had spiritually darkened their hearts and eyes.So, instead of asking why they behaved so brainless/wrongly, my Q became : How am I reflecting God's light to them?

Me & JoJo ( Our 1st shot ever ! So happy..!!! Some of my friends said we looked alike, are we?? nvm, it's my pleasure to look alike with u because you are leng lui...LoLx )

I hate my infirmity in dealing many expects of my life. Still striving hard to be BOLD in resisting all sorts of evil and hurdles. Inner-strenth building up still in progess >>>>......

Thanks so much to A & J, maybe you won't get to know this post but I will always remember your helping hand in my heart FOREVER.

Let's rise, permit the rays of Goodness shine in every nook of our lives & may we courageously reflect that light to the lost world