My Amazing Holiday

After the dreaded osce exam, the holiday that i craved for so long started !!!

1st of all, my cousin all the way frm UK came to bali paying me a visit and i really had fun with thm so much.. Thy are cute,humorous,funny and no doubt,PRETTY !!! Too bad Amy u are not with us..


26.07.09-30.07.09 Bali Trip

Millie-anne, wat kind of pose is that?? It's so funny !!! Joe,we were not ready yet..! Can it consider as a candid ?

Location : Balcony of the Putu Dewa Bharata Hotel,Seminyak

Brewing the hot chocolate... it's so NICE !!! enjoyin a cup of hot chocolate (oh..nop,many cups.. bcuz it's just too nice!) in the breezy atmorsphere.

Location : Coffee Garden ( the world well-known Luwak Coffee was available here )
For those friends who are coffee-holic, just come here and give urself a try.

As we just arrived the hotel, we were welcomed with the orange juice and the people there was hospitable...

Nice snap-shot ! But i looked plump here,wat do u thk??? urgh...gotta lose weight..

Location : Kintamani Volcano

I wish i could just jump into the sea.... and I get sun tan because of tis place... It's very SUNNY !!

Location : Water Blow at Nusa Dua

Although i don't like the study life in Bali, But 1 thing i just couldn't denied that the Bali beach and sunset is the most breathtaking scene i ever seen.

Location : Tanah Lot, Sunset

My 1st time experience... Darlin,I'm waiting you to come and accompany me play again...I know u like Bumpgy jumping...but i have to body check-up whether i hv incipient heart attack 1st. lolx...

Location : Flying Fish at Sanur Beach

U wouldn't believe it until u have ur own experience for parasailing here..whn u are flying in the sky,admist the cloud (Being exagerating,not as high as the cloud though) and look down..... the mesmerizing ! breathtaking ! amazing ! awesome ! scene will appear infront of u vividly... I will definitely give out the 2nd try with the camera in the grasp of my hand !!!!

Location : Parasailing at Sanur Beach

After the 5 days trip in Bali, finally back to my lovely hometown---->> Penang.

Having a great time with my family and friends... but time flies........ very soon...I gonna bec to Bali again...

9th August , 2009

Family gathering for brunch ( should be breakfast supposedly =P )

Location : Cititel Hotel, Penang

17th August, 2009

Ah Lin,Ah Queen,Yan Ting and ME... having a simple high-tea at Secret Recipe..

Location : Gurney Place

11th August, 2009

Thanks my buddies...Time flies, we hv been known each other for almost 6yrs dee..Thanks for the ktv treat...Wishing u all the best and i'll support u always !!!! Don't give up in ur study and undertakings.. You would definitely achieve it someday !!!!

14th August, 2009

Woo...the water was REFRESHING !!! It's just like a natural massage on your back. I almost fall out of the rock... osh..!!!! Having a great time with uncle Ben and family...xxxxx

Location : Waterfall at somewhere in Teluk Pahang. ( forgot the actual name dee..=P)

13th August, 2009

hehe..... Bravo for myself !!!! haha.....this is called "留住青春” I worried i couldnt make it whn im getting older and older...

Location : Air Itam Dam

14th August,2009

After the waterfall, we went for lunch at sunset bistro..I was snapping photo with my favourite pineapple fried frice + the straberry mix juice. xxxx

Location : Sunset Bistro ,Batu Ferringhi

15th August, 2009

Thanks my dear, having a great time in KL... The fountain was nice at the evening, Thank God the rain just stop at the very moment...agree?? Thanks to that Indonesian Cute Guy too,snap a very pretty photo of two of us...hehe

Location : Pavillion, KL

I have endless to tell you... so,to make it succinct, It's great to have you with me and i treasure the time we being together... Wish u have a great future and forever you would alwayz be in my heart !!! muaksssssxxxx

Location : Pavillion fountain,KL


This was another photo tat I xoxo alotz.... but all the restaurant here is super-duper expensive.. Hoping i check out all the nice restaurant here someday!... gimme sometime to earn money 1st xD

Location : .... Garden ( oops..forgotten, the one beside Pavillion =P )

18th August,2009

Lucas, thanks for giving me a great time here,enjoyin the tea and the teory of tea.. although i'm not fully uds what is that abt....especially when tauke was lecturing us abt the history of tea.. I was really PUZZLED !!!! =SSSS

Location : Tian Sui Zen, Batu Ferringhi

1st time experience in learning how to brew a tea and uds its virtue..hoho..!! Forgiving my faux pas,ok?? lolx..Kinda Fun actually.. I guess someday i'll addict in drinkin tea too...It's really hv a calming effect admist the hustle bustle of life, and i start to learn abt the knowlege of tea..hehe..start to learn how to be "aunty" dee...haha.. ( cuz the layman always said tea is for the old ppl activities...younsters usually like alcohol or bumming at coffee bean/starbucks..)

In short, i really have a great time and fruitful holiday ( fruitful in the sense of having fun with friends but not gaining knowlege..haha... I knew i'm lazy and i ADMIT IT with NO REGRET ).. urgh..I just don't want touch any medical book during my short short 4 weeks holiday.. and this is the holiday which i could catch up with so many friends ( sorry for some friends, we din't take any photo so can't post up here ) and i'm THRILLED !!!!!!!!!!

Happy moment always past in a just a flipped of eyes...and I abit sad because can't meet some of my friends ( Hun Pin, Suat Hong, Boon Keng,Sweetheart,Ah Dear ) you guyz are always in my list... and of course....

YOU,Wan Ying TEOH.... Why u travel in both Japan and HK for so long huh???!!!! haha...jz Joke.. Do u know you reach Penang in the afternoon and i will have my flight on the morning 9am,27th August... Urgh....it's just few hrs different and we can't meet each other still after 3yrs time...whn would be the next opportunity for us to meet up??? hmmmmm..........

Loneliness

不是因为寂寞而想起你，

I miss you is NOT because of loneliness

而是因为想起你，所以才感到寂寞。

Instead, Because of thinking about you,

that's why I feel the loneliness

阿麽与感触

自大学假期至今已是一星期又多，今天可说是我最早起床的一天，其实也没很早啦 （*心虚* =P ），7.15am 被闹钟从梦幻中叫醒因昨晚答应了陪阿麽去政府医药房follow up病情。(阿麽患有高血压，糖尿病及 inoperable spinal cord compression）到了医药房，已有很多人在等候着，幸好爸爸更伟大，一大早6.30am已去医药房排队拿了号码回来给我，是16号。

多数的人对政府医务人员的印象只有一个-------冷漠的医生+凶神恶煞的护士。虽然在不久的未来，我也将成为政府医务人员的一份子，但这种印象早已根深蒂固，我不否认我对政府医务人员的印象也是如此。

扶着阿麽坐下后，我就观察四周的情景，狭窄的行人道加上拥挤的人们导致水泄不通，有些人还得站着等候。忙碌的医务人员穿着口罩以防H1N1的袭击。等了半句钟后，终于到了16号。

走进病房里，看见两位医生坐在里头正为病人看病。由于阿麽只会说广东新汇话（与广东话略有不同）感觉那医生好像也没听懂，而且不意外地，脸色也并没有很好看。虽然我是土生土长的槟城人，但我的福建话还是派不上用场（我的福建话时常让朋友们捧腹大笑...呵呵），帮阿麽翻译得支支吾吾地。而那医生由始至终都没有抬起头正视我一眼，只迈着头，拼命写阿麽的病历。跟他对话，也没有点头或摇头给我一些意识，只是在那边埋头苦干地。。。

其实我并不会对这样的态度感到恼怒或什么的，反而有些同情他，因为我看到很多病人走进去见到医生就不停地说这里不舒服，哪里不舒服等等。。。说完后，拿了医生给的药方后就直接走出去了。在短短的几分钟，我看得出他好像已失去了做医生的热忱，只是麻木地工作着，他也不期望病人会对他道谢或说出什么感激的话。我知道，很多朋友都有向我诉苦，做工久了，都会变得麻木，纳闷工作怎么那么沉闷，没意义，生活一尘不变等等。。。以后的我也会这样吗？God knows....

之后，我向他询问可否多给阿麽关于便秘的药，他也只不过是点点头而已，我便向他说声：“Thankyou”。他竟然错愕地望着我，这也是他第一次正视我耶。。。之后的态度，明显地有善了很多。所以呢，我说啊 尽管别人用不好的态度面对你时，你也应该已良好的态度回应他，别人自然而然也会因你的态度而软化的，干吗要和别人逞凶呢？赢了有很了不起吗？

虽然在 bali 读书辛苦，有时候又真的很寂寞。。。但我感谢主，因为去了bali 求学后，让我领悟了很多之前都没发现的。虽然与阿麽住在一起很多年，但并没有和阿麽的感情很好，时常都会觉得他很烦，唠唠叨叨的。。。去了bali之后，你就会发现你是多么想念这些唠叨声。。。也发现自己，比起以前，对待老人家有耐性多了。。。

我很高兴因为可以陪伴阿麽去看病，这。。。就是简单的快乐。

阿麽，你一定要以乐观的态度面对你的病情，好好爱惜自己，别时常想胡思乱想，好吗？？我真的真的很想多陪陪你。。。等我毕业，好好回来侍奉你老人家，ok?

我知道比起很多人，我真的很幸福，也很幸运。。。。也很感谢上帝赐给我的一切。

可是为何我总觉得自己不够快了呢？不可以，我一定要努力让自己真正的快乐！！！

热忱 - 你在哪里？

离开这城市 想找个解放
一路开往 那无际的海洋
孤单的想像 寂寞的逃亡

偶尔 会难免沮丧
想离开 想躲起来
心里的期待 总是填不满

我还能找回三年前的热忱吗?
我 默默地祈祷着
你已经离开了
只留下这份热忱 陪伴着我

热忱 你到底在哪里？
为何不出现在我的世界?
我一直 寻寻觅觅着
却只换来泪水及疲惫

热忱 你是否累了? 你消失了吗 ?
为何我感受不到你的余温?
如何才能把你驻进我心里?
我的疲惫 等待着你的安慰
却只看见你已朝向他狂奔

为何要把自己的生命
搞得如此地狼狈
一波接着一波的海浪
冲打在我的身上 何时才能停止?

关于未来 只有自己明白
不想让心情 被现实打败
疲惫的身躯 只想好好的休息
放开所有的包袱
让我的忧愁 随着海风漂走
用海风抚慰那 一碰就碎 的心灵

让自己平静 给自己力量
才发现关于梦的答案 一直在自己手上
只有自己能 让自己发光 =)

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我不管,我只要

回家

回家

回家

I MISS HOME BADLY ......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

只有家
才是我的栖息之地
医治我心灵上的疲惫
放下一切束缚 做会自己 享受被溺爱的感觉

谢谢你 爸爸妈妈
纵然我多么的顽皮 你们的不离不弃
永远是我最好的依靠

Pleasure Principle

2 days ago, i received an email frm a friend....is about "wat your DOB tells you ?" So...Tat's a few words about my birthday No. --->> 6

Number 6

1. Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don't care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person..
   
2. You will be very good in either education or work wise! (I think tis is wat other ppl thk of me.... YEs ! )
   
3. You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives.
4. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.
5. most of you will get marry/engaged early. ( oh...really? Don't thk so... )
   
6. You are a caring person towards your family & friends . ( In the process of Learning still..)
   
7. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further... ( I like tis snip a whole lots ....)

Usually Gals always like to do psychological test although thy know it might not true...Homo sapiens is weird, always striving hard to deceit urself upon something which won't happen in the true world... Indulging in the fantasy of Fake Happiness... mayb i'm talkin abt---> MYSELF , the weird Homo sapiens... lolx...Fervently hoping the above sentences could happen in my life...Living Ardently..

Once my friend asked me,"do you abide by any principles tat guide the route of your life?" This question is just hit the nail on my head... I answered,"nvr thought of tis matter b4"..I feel ashamed of myself in a sudden, 22yrs++ life without principles...how can it be? It's gnawing me... After a deep thought, i thk my principle so far is --------->> PLEASURE PRINCIPLE

Accoring to Sigmund Freud, The Structural Theory of Mind (Id,Ego,SuperEgo):

• Id refers to a reservoir of unorganized instinctual drives. Operating under the domination of the primary process, lacking the capacity to delay or modify the instinctual drives with which an infant is born. Which all these amount to PLEASURE PRINCIPLE

• Ego - The executive organ of psyche, controls motility,perception,contact with reality, through defence mechanism available to it,the delay and modulation of drive expression. He believed that, Id is modified as a result of the impact of external world on the drives, wic simultateously substitutes the REALITY PRINCIPLE for the pleasure principle

• Superego establishes and maintains an individual's moral conscience on the basis of a complex system of ideals and values internalized

You are right...I'm just too immature in handling every expect in my life..alwaz work according to my instinct without a second thought.

When fear crept into my heart, my faith began to shaken and weaken...my faith was put in the test many times... but i still don't have any improvement though...Allow me to make the final dopey decision... after this, I will abandon the pleasure principle and adopt the reality principle...Please trust me for the 1 last time... ok??? I know you are worrying..but Please don't feel disappointed on me...Maybe it will hurt myself but I just want my life to be No remorse..at least i hv tried my best... agree?? ( guess i'm gonna get scolded again... lolx )

In short, i just wanna be HAPPY like the above picture ---
the cute baby,my son....hehe....

Hey my friends.... 你会挺我的，对吧 ？ 一定要哦 ！！！
谢谢你们一直的支持与关心。。真的
Love you all...... muaksss...........xxxxxxxxxx