連心

不知怎么的最近的我爱上了老歌。。。哈哈。。。
这首是 郑欣宜与刘家昌的经典合作。
自从进了小儿科部门，
我的生活只有三个选择 ：

• 我明天站岗
• 我今天站岗
• 我刚站岗完毕

没有一天是可以停歇的，刚站岗回来今晚又是Saturday Night，
应该要 enjoy 一下 ！！

最痛的心－母亲是伟大的

昨天刚从小儿科部门站岗回来，真的把我累坏了。。。
不想多说，只想分享我此刻的心情。

还记得，以前一开始迈入医学生实习生涯时，常常会把私人感情放在病人身上，久而久之，再遇见更多病人之后慢慢地都变麻木了。 但是在这里很想跟大家分享我在小儿科病房站岗的心情，突然间觉得自己是幸福的，是幸运的，虽然做医生让我牺牲了不少自己的时间，为病人而活，但是昨天看了那些小孩后，忽然间很开心 觉得自己很幸运成为医生，有机会看到人生百态，即使牺牲了青春但真的不会白费了人生。

病人一
他患了 duodenal atresia 小肠锁闭症，刚刚施完手术，消瘦得不行，已经三个月大了，才三公斤而已，他的母亲也辞了工作，天天留在医院照顾他。他母亲告诉我，自从进院以来，她自己也瘦了8kg.　由于这婴儿需要根据医生安排的 nutrition 时间表定时喂奶，有时是每两个小时，有时每三个小时喂一次。就像昨天，是我负责这婴儿的饮食时间表，除了白天之外，凌晨的一点，三点，五点都要叫醒他的母亲泡奶喂这婴儿。我只不过每三天站岗一次，晚间没得睡，但是这母亲呢？天天都要这样的过生活。，

病人二
他患了一个罕见的病，名为 Pierre-Robin Syndrome , 三个月大，病情危在旦夕，更可怜的是原来他们的第一个孩子也是患有先天疾病而离世的，万万没想到第二个孩子也是那么的不幸。听护士们说原本这夫妻家境还不错的，但是之前为了救第一个孩子的生命已把屋子卖掉，孩子还是救不回来。现在他们都把所有希望寄予这第二个孩子，夫妻也没什么工作了，天天２４小时不眠不休地留在加护病房陪伴这孩子，希望奇迹可以出现，孩子可以活下去。

病人三
他患了Burkitt's Lymphoma, 伯基特淋巴瘤，才两岁的小孩就得忍受化疗的痛苦，而且在颈项的肿瘤把他压得喘不过气来，时常面临呼吸困难的危机。站岗到了今天早上，以是我第三十个局钟的工作时间，精力也消耗得七七八八了。。。在写报告时，竟然在报告上“鬼画符”，沉重的眼皮不听使唤地压下来，忽然间听到走廊传来一阵婴儿哭闹声，把我从“神智不清”的情况下唤醒了，好奇心的驱使下，去看看到底是哪家的婴儿在哭泣？原来是他。他的母亲楼着他在怀里，不停地想办法让他忘记肿瘤带给他的痛楚，忘记哭泣，但都徒劳无功。过了两个小时，那孩子还是哭泣着，我看到了一幕让我很辛酸的画面，那母亲一只手抱着还在哭泣着的孩子，也许看到我走进病房，另一只手就不好意思地默默地拟去自己脸上不停流下来的泪水！！！我看到了，眼睛也湿了。

是，那些不幸的孩子是很痛苦，
但是身为父母亲看见自己的孩子那么痛苦但又无能为力时，
心更痛！
试问世上还有谁的心能比那默默拟去自己泪水的母亲更痛呢？

今はまだ悲しい love song

最後のキスは
タバコのflavorがした
にがくてせつない香
明日の今頃は
あなたはどこにいるんだろう
誰を想ってるんだろう
you are always gonna be my love
いつか誰かとまた恋に落ちても
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
今はまだ悲しい love song
新しい歌 うたえるまで
立ち止ま時間が
動き出そうとしてる
忘れたくないことばかり
明日の今頃には
わたしはきっと泣いている
あなたを想ってるんだろう
you will always be inside my heart
いつもあなただけの場所があるから
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
今はまだ悲しい love song
新しい歌 うたえるまで
you are always gonna be my love
いつか誰かとまた恋に落ちても
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
今はまだ悲しい love song

Love, can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance
A little love is all I ask
a little kindness in the night
Please don't leave me behind
No, don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I ask
and that is all

Ooh... love
I've been searching so long
I've been searching high and low
A little love is all I ask
A little sadness when you're gone
Maybe you need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
a ltitle love is all I ask
and that is all

I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't fly
As a string of pearls and pretty girls
Go sailing by
Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room
Ocean deep

Will I ever find a lover
May be she has found the lover
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep
Ocean Deep

Love
Can't you hear when I call
Can't you hear a word I say
a little love is all I ask
a little feeling when we touch
Why am I still alone
I've got a heart without a home
A little love is all I ask
and that is all
I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't fly
As a string of pearls and pretty girls
Go sailing by
Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings (in a)
Solitary room
Ocean deep
Will I ever find a lover
May be she has found the lover
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep
Ocean Deep

原来爱情跟我开了个玩笑

你在逃避着 我在心疼着

是什麽在伤害着 让美好都遗忘了
你是背对的 我是沉默的
你不再叫我宝贝 而我不再喊你亲爱的
我只好假装 我已不爱了
催眠自己我们不适合
我放开你了 我已不爱了
你快不快乐 过得是否好呢 我这样想着

你在爱谁呢 谁在想你呢
是什麽在反覆着 让回忆都翻起了
你是遥远的 我是孤独的


有缘千里来相聚，无缘对面不相逢
只要看你一眼一瞬间
也就足够了
今天的造化
就等老天爷的安排吧
告诉你我悄悄地爱上了你
却不知怎么开口告诉你
你太完美 显得我很卑微
我配不起你的爱
說服自己想多了
也许我从来就不曾浮现在你脑海中

你对我的好 我都了解
我曾经说过
如果蝴蝶不再飞了 还会漂亮吗
曾经以为不用再飞了
但是你我清楚了解
你我之间有段越不过的距离
两情相悦又如何？
这样的距离还要保持多久？
直到永远吗？
这样也好
至少可以把伤害减到最低
至少到最后 我们还是朋友

到了最后
---原来爱情总爱跟我开玩笑---

Say bye to Forensic & Hello, Sweet HOME !

REUNION DINNER 02.02.2011

This is the 1st time i had my reunion dinner in Bali. We ( As usual, the same gang of people ) went to Dynasty Lotus Restaurant for dinner, it cost Rp 140,000 ( RM 50 ) per person. Not really nice though, but the most important is the atmosphere. We did really enjoyed it ! Can see from the photo below... we ordered the "yu shang" , and we just found out Bali Chinese, they don't mix by them self but the chef mixed for them. Immediately we stopped the chef from doing this... and all of us stand up , pick up our chopsticks and shout "Fat arr... Fat arr.....!!!!" while we mixing the "yu shang" ! and of course, we became the focus of the restaurant !!! everyone looked at us.. yet we not felt any embarrassment.. =P

STUDY DAY 03.02.2011

although is the 1st day of CNY where i supposed to enjoy the day to the max, sadly i had my exam on the next day... so what to do ? stay at my dorm and study...but the progress of study was darn slow as my heart already on the way fly back home. LOL

EXAM AND ON-CALL DAY 04.02.2011

Having my exam in the morning. Right after the exam, my last on-call in forensic department started. On-call in forensic divided into two part --> Forensic Pathology and Forensic Clinic.

• Forensic Pathology - Stay at the forensic building , stay with the "corpse". If there are any case of unnatural death eg. traffic accident, we have to perform the external examination on the dead bodies.
• Forensic Clinic - Stay at the Emergency Room, record all the cases which have the potential bringing to court, deal with the police man and the client/victim, about insurance etc. Besides, we also play the role as the 1st-line practitioner who handle all the rape cases, sexual harassment, criminal cases, disputed paternity, persecution, etc.. before consult to forensic specialist.
  

The following picture --> when i had my last on-call in Forensic Clinic.
Again, i would like to sound out forensic is really an interesting department.. I learned a lot throughout the lab, about the mechanism of death in cases of strangulation, hanging, gun shot wound, stab wound, suicide , sexual abuse or rape, sudden death, electrical injury, burn injury, infanticide, etc etc....

Out of surprise, someone bought me a drink at 2am when i almost fall asleep during on-call, feel warm and touched. You know who you are... Thanks a lot.. =)


CASE PRESENTATION AND GO HOME 05.02.2011

Hoorayyyyyyyyyyyy^^^^^^^!!!!!
Hopefully it is not too late to collect ang pao ,agree ?
kekekekeke,.....

HAPPY CNY !!! 新年快乐 ！！

祝大家
新年快乐
兔年行好运
大家 心想事成 万事如意
最重要的是 身体健康 天天开心

This is the photo which i took in my room...
I purposely decorate my family photos in a heart-shaped and paste at the wall which is just beside my bed. hehe....

another thing which i love the most
Winnie Pooh !!!
but is only a small size winnie pooh in my room
hmm... daddy, I want a 1.6M height winnie pooh when i graduate , deal ?? =P

Wishing everyone HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!!
have a PROSPEROUS YEAR ahead !!!
and the most important
- good health -

Ok, is the time to study and get ready for tomorrow osce examination in forensic department !!!
having Oncall right after my exam on friday
Saturday Case Presentation
Sunday back to my BELOVED HOME !!!!!!! Hooray ^^^^
Can't wait for it.....

Pray for my exam tomorrow because really not study much
Hardly focus in my study on this very 1st day of CNY !!!